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Good luck guys! Def really excited for me!
I hope you all do great job.
 I really like them. And this event will feature their vocalist, so I can't hide my excitement! That was great news for me and made me happy. I don't really like summer, but I'm really looking forward to this year's event. Thank you Mudia. Their husky and beautiful singing voices sometimes scream powerfully and sometimes subtly soothe. I know they are difficult techniques. But he does it well. It builds a story over the song and creates a margin for the viewer to substitute emotions. They are essential to music. Do you agree?
In particular, I like one of their works, "If you can meet at the live house". It goes in 6-8 time signatures at medium tempo. It's the same beat all the way through, but that's why you can clearly hear the ups and downs of his amazing voice. I listened to that song many times. And I am impressed again and again. even now.
I don't know any singer-songwriters other than him, but I'm sure they'll be on the same stage as him, so I think they'll be great too. It excites me so much. I'm sure they will create a very happy time tonight. I feel honored to be able to spend time together as that audience.
May they have many joys! It may actually be that I have already been given to them.
thank you!

The medicine is setting in
My lungs gasp for oxygen
And blood fills my throat
I drown 'til I float
My sunken heart-shaped by erosion

I can't stop myself
I find that I run for the window, the window
I can't trust myself
Voices start to echo ""you reap what you sow""
I can't save myself
I'm stuck in life, between the surfaces and the burrows
Bury my deep with my sorrows
All I'm looking for now deep inside is another day

I'm bleeding and pleading for a silver lining
I'm sitting and waiting for some light to shine in
It's harder to breathe tonight
So I toughen up my skin so I can fight

I can't stop myself
I find that I run for the window, the window
I can't trust myself
Voices start to echo ""you reap what you sow""
I can't save myself
I'm stuck in life, between the surfaces and the burrows
Buried with my soul, bury my soul
I'll carry myself

Isn't it amazing how I spent my life praying
Yet I'm deprived, all empty inside, and I'm petrified
All my life I searched for
Answers and for a mentor
And books hidden within broken, opened golden sunken drawers
My eyes open but I can't see
What life lies just ahead of me
Oh God, all I ask for now is that you don't
let me sleep again alone with my bed
Don't ask me, cause I can't follow through with God's plans
I ain't good enough for God's plans

(Don't) let me sleep again in my bed
Don't ask me, cause I can't follow through with God's plans
I ain't good enough for God's plans
I ain't good enough
I ain't good enough for God's plans
I ain't good enough
(Hands crossed, open one eye)
(Hands crossed, open one)
The medicine is setting in
My lungs gasp for oxygen
And blood fills my throat
I drown 'til I float
My sunken heart-shaped by erosion

I can't stop myself
I find that I run for the window, the window
I can't trust myself
Voices start to echo ""you reap what you sow""
I can't save myself
I'm stuck in life, between the surfaces and the burrows
Bury my deep with my sorrows
All I'm looking for now deep inside is another day

I'm bleeding and pleading for a silver lining
I'm sitting and waiting for some light to shine in
It's harder to breathe tonight
So I toughen up my skin so I can fight

I can't stop myself
I find that I run for the window, the window
I can't trust myself
Voices start to echo ""you reap what you sow""
I can't save myself
I'm stuck in life, between the surfaces and the burrows
Buried with my soul, bury my soul
I'll carry myself

Isn't it amazing how I spent my life praying
Yet I'm deprived, all empty inside, and I'm petrified
All my life I searched for
Answers and for a mentor
And books hidden within broken, opened golden sunken drawers
My eyes open but I can't see
What life lies just ahead of me
Oh God, all I ask for now is that you don't
let me sleep again alone with my bed
Don't ask me, cause I can't follow through with God's plans
I ain't good enough for God's plans

(Don't) let me sleep again in my bed
Don't ask me, cause I can't follow through with God's plans
I ain't good enough for God's plans
I ain't good enough
I ain't good enough for God's plans
I ain't good enough
(Hands crossed, open one eye)
(Hands crossed, open one)"
"
I’ll walk when I need to walk
Not when you tell me to
When push comes to shove
It's not enough to stop me move
Fell down a couple times
You like to watch me lose
Like to watch me lose, yeah

Hit 'em with the low
The front to the back rows, yeah
Tell you when to go
Get down to the floor

You really wanna know
What I carry when I sing,
The sacrifice I bring,
All the people I left?
I risk it all
And sometimes it's hard to believe
It's so easy not to forget and let it go
I really wanna know
When dreams get into sync
And things start to get deep
All the chances that wait
I'll take them all
Keep moving forget the ignorance

Lights out
Get 'em begging for a replay

Now hit 'em with the low
Yeah, I'm never gonna bow down
Regardless of how much Imma fall out
Still I got doubts, but I gotta hold out
This is the life I decided to scout
And up with the breakout, yeah
All the way to the radio
Up top, non-stop on your stereo
'Til all your speakers blow

Do you know 
What I carry when I sing,
The sacrifice I bring,
All the people I left?
I risk it all
And sometimes it's hard to believe
It's so easy not to forget and let it go
I really wanna know
When dreams get into sync
And things start to get deep
All the chances that wait
I'll take them all
Keep moving forget the ignorance

Hit 'em with the low
The front to the back rows, yeah
Tell you when to go
Get down to the floor

You really wanna know
What I carry when I sing,
The sacrifice I bring,
All the people I left?
I risk it all
And sometimes it's hard to believe
It's so easy not to forget and let it go
I really wanna know
When dreams get into sync
And things start to get deep
All the chances that wait
I'll take them all
Keep moving forget the ignorance"
"
Every time I lie is another day alone
With nobody else at home
And every time I cry is another moment into stone
Pour cement into my bones
And I stay up all night in low light
Get myself stuck in my own mind
Cause I'm so fixated in you
Thinking about all we went through
After all these years thinking
I got myself sinking down into nothing
Spend all my self-loathing, yeah
Most days, I find myself contemplating in bed
And always, I get myself trapped inside of my head
I won't say that I'm happy when I'm not, but instead
Every day, to myself, I fantasize being dead
And I wonder how much longer do I falter?
How much further? Will I ever become stronger
Like my mother and my father?
Will I ever get to conquer mental monsters that I conjured?
I will never find an answer, so I ponder and I wander.
I'm another complex runner.
I wanna cover when I suffer, but I stutter
And the thunder got me running for the covers.
I'm still the same, stuck in last summer.
Looking back,
Looping back forever.
All the confusion that goes with delusion
The feel of intrusion from lack of solution
Is nothing but stress-induced
And sometimes I slip from the saddle
Whenever these demons win the battle
Flood my head with thoughts 'til I rattle
And all of these words are making it worse
Every time I cry is another day alone
With nobody else at home
And every time I lie is another moment into stone
Pour cement into my bones
Lack of a heart, but persist to exist
Art is my biggest assist
Cannot pertain to a kiss
And I have to resist
And dismiss a flick to my wrist
Once in a while, I rely on a dial
Memories of you got me crying in denial
Life is a trial, but it's hard to compile
A list of defenses to make it worthwhile
Mental fences are chainlink to senses
Consensus commences pretenses
And this, here, now dispenses offences, yeah
All the confusion that goes with delusion
The feel of intrusion from lack of solution
Is nothing but stress-induced
Every time I cry is another day alone
With nobody else at home
And every time I lie is another moment into stone
Pour cement into my bones
(Every time I cry)
(No one else at home)
(And I feel so cold)
Every time I cry is another day alone
With nobody else at home
And every time I lie is another moment into stone
Pour cement into my bones"
"
Climb so high all the forces cannot bind me
These enforcers cannot find me
Yeah, these bullies can't define me
Fists like stone, when they push they cannot break me
Evoke fear when we use force
They use violence to keep us in course
When we lose control,
They patrol the streets to keep us in check and locked indoors.
Abuse of the badge and the point of a gun
Fear of skin color has only begun
Hide behind the blue and the threat of a stun
Beating our freedom with a dirty baton
We'll blow like dynamite
We'll engrave our names
Our stage is a fucking warzone
We're dynamite
Be engulfed in flames
Our hate is deep in our bones
We're dynamite
We're insane
The game's to reclaim our splattered blood throne
We're dynamite
Stay course from the sunlight
Pretend that we're alright
Keep telling yourself that
""They don't have to know.
Yeah, they don't have to know.""
Blow the spotlight
And hide in the moonlight
And tell yourself that
""They don't have to know.""
Yeah, keep on tellin 'em that
""We are okay.""
Okay, keep on faking fine
Until they all stay, all stay away
Til we make a new name, new name
Until we all wake into alarm"
"
Stressed out, wandering in a train station
Lights out, stuck around for a temptation
The wind's in, howling through the dark tunnels
and I can't find the muzzle for these subtle rebuttals
Assemble to crumble
My life turns to rubble
With each struggle, my life turns into a puzzle and
Obliteration is my only vindication
The medication's sensation doesn't steer assimilation
Ever since that day she left me for you,
all these issues I'm going through
have left me obsessed with you
I need to throw these problems out, so bottles up
Haunting me all the way from December
And all I gotta say is:
Listen to me boy
You better call her ""baby""
and make sure that you listen to everything she has to say
(Don't mind me, I'm just a little low)
Listen to me boy, you better treat her like she's the only one for you
I played just a little wrong
But I need to man up and let her go
I need to drown these demons bottled up
But every time, I run to cover-up
I'm not much of a fighter
I don't wanna remember December
I just wanna forget all about her
I talk too much, but quick to quit to let go
Take no for an answer to wage on
A mental vacation, or rely on sedation
laced onto a rope in a station
Confused by frustration and my inner narrations
Just know that when you go home
You'll never sleep alone
Bu the image of you two together
Will keep haunting me forever
Listen to me boy
You better call her ""baby""
and make sure that you listen to everything she has to say
(Don't mind me, I'm just a little low)
Listen to me boy, you better treat her like she's the only one for you
I played just a little wrong
But I need to man up and let her go
I don't understand
Why she had to go
I don't understand at all
I don't understand
why she had to go and leave me
Listen to me boy
You better call her ""baby""
and make sure that you listen to everything she has to say
(Don't mind me, I'm just a little low)
Listen to me boy, you better treat her like she's the only one for you
I played just a little wrong
But I need to man up and let her go"
"
I stay up later recently and question myself endlessly.
More and more I start to see the person that I’m meant to be;
My inner monster, a disappointer, claw up thoughts until I rot.
And every day’s the same.
I’m sick of me.
I’m so sick of all of you.
I’m afraid of this monster inside of me, but I like to peek in so curiously.
Drags me inside down to my knees.
It eats me up like a cannibal, so I resort to an Adderall.
Just 1 pill to chill and 5 pills to kill.
Shot of NyQuil so I can sit still.
Why’d you treat me like an animal?
Toss me to the side like I’m expendable?
Light up my fuse, I’m so flammable.
Back up before I break your mandible.
Why’re you even mad? It’s just the old shit.
You treat it like you never even saw it.
Back up or fight.
I’m never seeing the light.
I am the scene of the crime,
cause people never want to listen to my...
Voices and emotions swallow me whole into these oceans.
Who am I? Who am I? Who am I?
Endless shots of Hennessy spiraling down into the end of me.
Who am I? Who am I? Who am I?
Listen! No, you don’t listen!
You back me up all the way to the kitchen!
Swallow my pills, so I can silence the voice.
I’m banging my head just to beat and drown out the noise.
Thin out the blood in my flow, so I can go sleep and pass out on the floor.
But you just don’t ever listen.
Fuck all you heathens.
Pass over me while I’m bleeding.
Waiting for that little halo.
Not even a little “hello”?
Tired of all the hell no’s.
All I want is to be seen.
Find out answers to life’s meaning, yeah.
Why’d you treat me like an animal?
Toss me to the side like I’m expendable?
Light up my fuse, I’m so flammable.
Back up before I break your mandible.
Why’re you even mad? It’s just the old shit.
You treat it like you never even saw it.
Back up or fight.
I’m never seeing the light.
I am the scene of the crime,
cause people never want to listen to my...
Voices and emotions swallow me whole into these oceans.
Who am I? Who am I? Who am I?
Endless shots of Hennessy spiraling down into the end of me.
Who am I? Who am I? Who am I?"
"

(Part I)
Remember all the lives you've abandoned and burned
Yeah, we did that together
Waste away every day now, yeah
Let it burn in fire
All the sins you hide from me
I've seen it all now thoroughly
Everyone can see you shut down for weeks, yeah
(What do you have to say?)
My mind is a turnstile
Spits lethal projectiles
Head working in freestyle
Can't help that I'm hostile
My profile is senile
My heart into exile
Compile all the thoughts into ammo I be making is worthwhile
Push down at the roots, until I shoot
Alibi is all I need
So I move triggers to suit,
But I dispute advice
I pollute all my mind
I repute
I'm burning on, I'm the paragon
I'm burning on, I'm the paragon
(Part II)
Is this what I have become?
A ghost embracing this gun?
And now the mirror me keeps on mocking me
Tearing down my sanity
Reality is hurting me
And all I see is fake to me
Trigger to decide
What happens to my life
I'm praying to the sky
No, I'm not, I'm not the man inside
Strong enough, I put it all behind me
I throw it all, blow it all to the floor
All the pain I hide I inside of me
Close my eyes and cry so I can breathe
Throw it all, blow it all to the floor
There's nowhere else to run
I'm holding onto no one
(Say it one more, baby)
There's nowhere else to run
I'm holding onto no one, no"
"

God, are you listening?
Can you hear me weeping?
All I'm asking for is just one thing:
Erase all the shit inside of me

Dear who's ever hearing this,
Sorry that you got stuck with this
I don't know why I'm even like this
I just know I'm not fine with this

Won't you sit and hear me vent?
Cause I got shit deep inside my head
I said shit that I never meant
I regret all the shit I sent

I am always late on rent
And now my car just got a dent
That I don't know how I can mend
Cause all my money has been spent

And I can barely afford to live inside this dorm
I'm so outside the norm
I question why I was even born

God, are you listening?
Can you hear me weeping?
All I'm asking for is just one thing:
Erase all the shit inside of me
God are you listening? Can you hear me weeping?
All I'm asking for is just one thing:
Forgive all the sins inside of me

Every night I stay up
If I sleep, dreams make me wake up
Dreams of me messing up
Reminds me that I should be gone
Every day, it's escalating
And my brain starts pulsating
What's the meaning of all of this?
This large abyss, a mental itch
I start to inch toward my wrist
My bucket list thrown off a bridge
Lost in the mist
I am not missed
Nobody wants me
Fated to be lonely
I am so sorry
For my aggravated tone
And the endless calls from my cellphone

Tonight is the night I decide
The night that I might end my life
Invisible eyes immortalize all of my lies into the sky and
I long for a meaning
Into my own life, I know I'm repeating
But now, I am bleeding and losing my breathing
I think I am dying

God, are you listening?
Can you hear me weeping?
All I'm asking for is just one thing:
Erase all the shit inside of me
God are you listening? Can you hear me weeping?
All I'm asking for is just one thing:
Forgive all the sins inside of me"
"
“He doesn’t want to talk to me.
He doesn’t even look at me.
So I’m leavin’, leavin’, yeah.”
 
That’s what you always say to me.
You cry over the phone with me
Saying, “what am I supposed to do?”
 
“He did it again yesterday.
I’ll probably call it off today.
Yeah, I’m leavin’, leavin’, yeah.”
 
You hide under the shade today
Catch a glimpse of the bruise down on your knee
Behind the lens, a stream of teardrops
 
Back both of us were kids
You would cry all through the night
Pull you closer by the shoulder
‘til all your tears were dry
And I’d hope for a better, sweeter love
 
*For you, baby
Just know that I’ll be strong for you
I stay up lately
Just wondering what I’m supposed to do
With how I feel
I bury them inside
 
“He doesn’t want to talk to me.
He doesn’t even look at me.
So I’m leavin’, leavin’, yeah.”
Yeah, I just wish that I had enough strength inside
To pull you away to protect you from him, too
 
Every night I dream and, yeah, all I ever think of is only you
All the pain endured, I want to carry them for you, too
 
When I wake and open both my eyes
To the fact that you’re gone
I’ll be wondering
What am I supposed to,
What am I supposed to do?
(I’ll do what I have to)
 
*For you, baby
Just know that I’ll be strong for you
I stay up lately
I’m beating myself at night
Just wondering what I’m supposed to do
With how I feel
I bury them inside
 
Every time I dream I wake up
When I want to dream, I wake up from everything
‘til I find a way
I’ll make sure of me to stay
With how I feel inside"
"
Drank, so I can’t see my own face
Least, I see no consequences, no fakes
I don’t even know what I’m feeling, no
Give no fucks, I’m shouting, yelling “no fakes”
I don’t mind, I don’t mind, I am mine
Life decline, I always am adamant
Out of line, I confine, draw the line 
Undermine serpentine fingerprints
Salt stains litter the glass, trickling down all the windows 
I don’t know, but I know I can draw ornaments from my own sanity fragments
Sinking low to the floor
Ripping petals off a rose
Blood dribbling down from my nose
Voices inside of my head, they won’t let me go to bed
Sanity thin as a thread, my head full of lead
Why the fuck do my eyes see red?
Drank, so I can’t see my own face
Least, I see no consequences, no fakes
I don’t even know what I’m feeling, no
Give no fucks, I’m shouting, yelling “no fakes”
Enemies inside of me found within my inner vicinity
Would you give me lobotomy for the sake of the end of me?
Life is a cinema dilemma systema to the mother fucking 3rd degree
Anxiety got me seeing all these ghosts get me til I begin to coast
Bring me down when I’m most like to close all the way down
There’s no other way around to avoid another breakdown
Just another countdown
Gonna turn slowly into a beast
Have myself another feast til I’m drunk and down to my knees
I am getting tired of all this bullshit
I just wanna do what I please
This is the end of my time, end of my prime
Fight til they ring out the chime
Bite til they fade out the light, call in the night
Don’t wanna lose what is right
Drank, so I can’t see my own face
Least, I see no consequences, no fakes
I don’t even know what I’m feeling, no
Give no fucks, I’m shouting, yelling “no fakes”
Yeah, I always thought that my life would come bite me,
But I never thought I would be found so soon
If God does exist, I would be dismissed and
Sentenced to never again see the moon
I would burn forever in fire
Amidst all the sinners on pyres
For all that I’ve done in my life, 
I’d become a lesson in God’s empire
This is what I’ll get from the priest once I’m deceased
A breath of fresh air will release
But I never thought this would end oh so soon
(And I repeat again, again)
Drank, so I can’t see my own face
Least, I see no consequences, no fakes
I don’t even know what I’m feeling, no
Give no fucks, I’m shouting, yelling “no fakes”
Drank, so I can’t see my own face
Least, I see no consequences, no fakes
(Don’t even know, I’m yelling “no fakes”)
Drank, so I can’t see my own face
Least, I see no consequences, no fakes
(Don’t even know, I’m yelling “no fakes”)"
"

Just watch your step, you’ll slip and fall
Can barely see, but it’s not enough, no
Even in pain, you can’t let go
Just stand up, breath in-out, just hold on
Through and through, we’ll realize what’s burning in our eyes 
Let the fire burn (let the fire burn)
We live and learn (Don’t let them with a takedown)
Stuck in life
I ask me, “why am I right?”
I can’t deny the need to climb and make it mine
Ignore the pain, I
Before I lay down 
Against the pour down
I must control how my life will turn out 
So I can break out amidst the fall out
Deter the breakdown
I’m just another lost soul
A black crow in the white snow
I believe, I dream
I can feel the sparks beneath my feet
You’re not slowing me down
I’m making my way up
You can catch me in a melody
(Cause I)
I believe, I dream
Even at times when my heart bleeds
So, I don’t give my heart, my heart away
Yeah, I know it’s complicated
But I am suffocating head to toe
I don’t know what I’m doing, 
But “I feel fine”
I tell myself that every time
“It’s alright if I die”
Drown out the noise I hide inside with feelings of stress
I try to fight it
Ignore the pain, I
Before I lay down 
Against the pour down
I must control how
The thought of being less
The thought of being pressed down
“I’m feeling depressed now”
Sing out “I’m just another lost soul,
A black crow in the white snow”
Here I am to sing it loud again
I believe, I dream
You can feel the sparks beneath my feet
You’re not slowing me down
I’m making my way up
You can catch me in a melody
(Cause I)
I believe, I dream
Even at times when my heart bleeds
So, I don’t give my heart, my heart away
I can’t bleed anymore (anymore)
I’m losing against my own war
Inside my head, I say things I dread (I dread)
Doubts inside again
I often drown myself with medicine
A disease I need to release
I dream, I dream
I believe, I dream
You can feel the sparks beneath my feet
You’re not slowing me down
I’m making my way up
You can catch me in a melody
(Cause I)
I believe, I dream
Even at times when my heart bleeds
So, I don’t give my heart, my heart away
(my heart away)
You’re not slowing me down
I’m making my way up
You can catch me in a melody
I believe, I dream
Even at times when my heart bleeds
So, I don’t give my heart, my heart
My heart"
"

I wake up alone in bed
A message from you, instead
I’m tired of this distance
When we’re sharing the same rent
I stay up in thought of you
Tired of being see-through
Don’t throw me aside
Inside I lie to myself “we’re fine”

Can you give me a reason
Why I shouldn’t just leave on the weekend?
Iris set to home
But I gotta get back on my own
Make me cry

Don’t leave me all alone
You said, “I never meant to hurt you” once more
But I heard that before
I’m leaving it all alone
Just say “I never loved you”
I’m on my own

I open my mouth and I breathe
But words just won’t come and I freeze
And I’m down on my knees
I’m counting to three, yeah
I’m feeling my pride leave, yeah
And as I kept my eyes low
My blood started to sizzle
My inner me got out to see
This act thrown out the window
“Feel sorry for me” is out the door
I can finally be

“Now you do what I say”
Now this is my stage
And watch me dance across the floor
Swinging a steel blade (telling me lies)
Guess this is how it ends
This is how life bends

Don’t leave me all alone
You said, “I never meant to hurt you” once more
But I heard that before
I’m leaving it all alone
Just say “I never loved you”
I’m on my own

My arms can’t hold
(watching you, watching you)
I just can’t watch you right now
(Watch you go, watch you go)

Before you say goodbye
Look me in my eyes
And watch me burn

(Don’t leave me all alone)
Why don’t take my heart and just break
Take it all away
Yet I find myself say

Don’t leave me all alone
You said, “I never meant to hurt you” once more
But I heard that before
I’m leaving it all alone
Just say “I never loved you”
I’m on my own

Don’t leave me all alone
Can you hear me?
(But I heard that before)
I’m leaving it all alone
Just say “I never loved you”
I’m on my own"
"
I’m melting into ashes
(Stay by my side, stay by my side)
Heat got into my own head
(Stay by my side)
Yeah, I’m burning, I’m burning

Skin like fire
Warm inside
Twist like wires
(Stay by my side, stay by my side)
Felt so high, yeah
Before goodbyes
(These moments) burn in the sun
Yeah, I’ll never forget

Yeah, I’ll never forget

Is this what you mean by “reminiscing”?
Cause I remember it another way
Can’t you see you and me were never meant to be
(We’re always meant to be)
(I remember it like it was just yesterday,
Everything in my mind replays)
Just like with me, but bad memories
Drown me with the sea, oh
(Everytime I try to go back,
Incase of panic attacks, I drink a six pack)
But we won’t last
It’s the end of the run
We burned in the sun
Yeah, I’ll never forget

Yeah, I’ll never forget
Yeah, I’ll never forget
(End of the run
Burn in the sun, yeah
End of the run)
Yeah, I’ll never forget

Skin like fire
Warm inside
Twist like wires
(Stay by my side, stay by my side)
Felt so high, yeah
Before goodbyes
(These moments) burn in the sun
Burn in the sun
Skin like fire
Warm inside
Twist like wires
(Stay by my side, stay by my side)
Felt so high, yeah
Before goodbyes
(These moments) burn in the sun
Yeah, I’ll never forget

Yeah, I’ll never forget

(The sun will set, it’s dark again
And oh, let’s start again slow)
(End of the run, burn in the sun, end of the run)

Yeah, I’ll never forget

(The sun will set, it’s dark again
And oh, let’s start again slow)
(End of the run, burn in the sun, end of the run)
Yeah, I’ll never forget
I’m melting into ashes
Heat got into my own head
Yeah, I’m burning, I’m burning"
"
And it begins
The sudden urge to fly
I’m checking my list
Oh heavens, come help me
I can’t help it, I savor it
I’m addicted to the taste of blood, yeah

Lock up the doors right
There’s no escape tonight
Cover their eyes
Set them in fire
Nothing can stop us now, yeah
Dead or alive, we’re loud, yeah
Let it all out
(Let it all out in sight)

Yeah we dance around the moon
Under raining blood
Let the velvet clothe the ground
Under broken hearts
Break the seams off like the yellow split navy skies
Shining through, shining through
Past the wailing cries
Yeah we swerve on through the night
Over Half Moon Bay
Falling to the sand over where our bodies will lay
As we float on gently down with the raining glass
Smiling through, smiling through our eyes

Stop, can you hear me crying out loud?
Yeah, I’m crawling out now yeah 
Oh bury me six feet deep
So you can fall asleep
But that doesn’t work on me, no

Open your eyes, open your eyes
Know that I’m back, yeah
You can’t escape this room
You can’t escape this room

This is the end, this is the end for you
Down with the system, drown with your mister

Yeah we dance around the moon
Under raining blood
Let the velvet clothe the ground
Under broken hearts
Break the seams off like the yellow split navy skies
Shining through, shining through
Past the wailing cries
Yeah we swerve on through the night
Over Half Moon Bay
Falling to the sand over where our bodies will lay
As we float on gently down with the raining glass
Smiling through, smiling through our eyes

And as we fall, pray “I’m sorry” 

Just know that you’ll never get to go home to your mother and your father
But it’s better cause I’ll take you to our Father
It’s like a one way trip and it’s for a good cause
I just let a knife slip and red confetti spews off
Sympathy is what I lack
Just like to attack from the back
I’m like a heart attack, that's a fact yeah 
I’m the Don 
Night til dawn
Easy on
Babble on
You’ll be gone

Lock up the doors right
There’s no escape tonight
Cover their eyes
Set them in fire
Nothing can stop us now, yeah
Dead or alive, we’re loud, yeah
Let it all out
(Let it all out in sight)

Yeah we dance around the moon
Under raining blood
Let the velvet clothe the ground
Under broken hearts
Break the seams off like the yellow split navy skies
Shining through, shining through
Past the wailing cries
Yeah we swerve on through the night
Over Half Moon Bay
Falling to the sand over where our bodies will lay
As we float on gently down with the raining glass
Smiling through, smiling through our eyes"
"
Here it is again
Same routine, the same old friends
Dress like everyone, the same old things
Go to work and drive the same old lane
(Turn it up)
Swallow all happy pills just like everyone else
Follow orders on screen and take the paycheck
Leave at 5, yeah, all the time
Go to sleep around 9
And say goodnight to LIFE, yeah,
Til the sunrise
I don’t know why oh why
When I start to feel like this
I’m forced to sing this:
(And it goes like this)
All of us can’t see our future clearly
All of us live life mindlessly, yeah
Just live our life til we die
Don’t even know what we like
Go under, go under, go under
It keeps repeating, repeating
Til we lose track of the days in the calendar
I follow orders, like others, so aimlessly
But I wanna break cause I cannot take this for another night
It seems I’m going crazy, yeah
Can’t take it easy, yeah
Follow everyone’s rhythm
Stick with the same algorithm to sell ‘em, yeah
Culture full of blame for those who are not the same
(Is this what you want now?)
Longing for revolution
Don’t need a cult religion
What are we dancing for now?
Copy-paste, indulge us right now
That’s the way it goes and that’s the way it goes
(And all I gotta say is)
All of us can’t see our future clearly
All of us live life mindlessly, yeah
Just live our life til we die
Don’t even know what we like
Go under, go under, go under
They thought we wouldn’t notice this orchestrated bliss
But none of me want to be a part of this, yeah
Gotta run from it all
Lay low, gotta crawl
Forget all the words they made us call
All of us can’t see our future clearly
All of us live life mindlessly, yeah
Just living our life in fear
So we gotta go under, go under All of us can’t see our future clearly
All of us live life mindlessly, yeah
Just live our life til we die
Don’t even know what we like
Go under, go under, go underAll of us can’t see our future clearly
All of us live life mindlessly, yeah
Just live our life til we die
Don’t even know what we like
Go under, go under, go under"
I believe, I dream
I can feel the sparks beneath my feet
You’re not slowing me down
I’m making my way up
You can catch me in a melody
(Cause I)
I believe, I dream
Even at times when my heart bleeds
So, I don’t give my heart, my heart away
Yeah, I know it’s complicated
But I am suffocating head to toe
I don’t know what I’m doing, 
But “I feel fine”
I tell myself that every time
“It’s alright if I die”
Drown out the noise I hide inside with feelings of stress
I try to fight it
Ignore the pain, I
Before I lay down 
Against the pour down
I must control how
The thought of being less
The thought of being pressed down
“I’m feeling depressed now”
Sing out “I’m just another lost soul,
A black crow in the white snow”
Here I am to sing it loud again
I believe, I dream
You can feel the sparks beneath my feet
You’re not slowing me down
I’m making my way up
You can catch me in a melody
(Cause I)
I believe, I dream
Even at times when my heart bleeds
So, I don’t give my heart, my heart away
I can’t bleed anymore (anymore)
I’m losing against my own war
Inside my head, I say things I dread (I dread)
Doubts inside again
I often drown myself with medicine
A disease I need to release
I dream, I dream
I believe, I dream
You can feel the sparks beneath my feet
You’re not slowing me down
I’m making my way up
You can catch me in a melody
(Cause I)
I believe, I dream
Even at times when my heart bleeds
So, I don’t give my heart, my heart away
(my heart away)
You’re not slowing me down
I’m making my way up
You can catch me in a melody
I believe, I dream
Even at times when my heart bleeds
So, I don’t give my heart, my heart
My heart"
"

I wake up alone in bed
A message from you, instead
I’m tired of this distance
When we’re sharing the same rent
I stay up in thought of you
Tired of being see-through
Don’t throw me aside
Inside I lie to myself “we’re fine”

Can you give me a reason
Why I shouldn’t just leave on the weekend?
Iris set to home
But I gotta get back on my own
Make me cry

Don’t leave me all alone
You said, “I never meant to hurt you” once more
But I heard that before
I’m leaving it all alone
Just say “I never loved you”
I’m on my own

I open my mouth and I breathe
But words just won’t come and I freeze
And I’m down on my knees
I’m counting to three, yeah
I’m feeling my pride leave, yeah
And as I kept my eyes low
My blood started to sizzle
My inner me got out to see
This act thrown out the window
“Feel sorry for me” is out the door
I can finally be

“Now you do what I say”
Now this is my stage
And watch me dance across the floor
Swinging a steel blade (telling me lies)
Guess this is how it ends
This is how life bends

Don’t leave me all alone
You said, “I never meant to hurt you” once more
But I heard that before
I’m leaving it all alone
Just say “I never loved you”
I’m on my own

My arms can’t hold
(watching you, watching you)
I just can’t watch you right now
(Watch you go, watch you go)

Before you say goodbye
Look me in my eyes
And watch me burn

(Don’t leave me all alone)
Why don’t take my heart and just break
Take it all away
Yet I find myself say

Don’t leave me all alone
You said, “I never meant to hurt you” once more
But I heard that before
I’m leaving it all alone
Just say “I never loved you”
I’m on my own

Don’t leave me all alone
Can you hear me?
(But I heard that before)
I’m leaving it all alone
Just say “I never loved you”
I’m on my own"
"
I’m melting into ashes
(Stay by my side, stay by my side)
Heat got into my own head
(Stay by my side)
Yeah, I’m burning, I’m burning

Skin like fire
Warm inside
Twist like wires
(Stay by my side, stay by my side)
Felt so high, yeah
Before goodbyes
(These moments) burn in the sun
Yeah, I’ll never forget

Yeah, I’ll never forget

Is this what you mean by “reminiscing”?
Cause I remember it another way
Can’t you see you and me were never meant to be
(We’re always meant to be)
(I remember it like it was just yesterday,
Everything in my mind replays)
Just like with me, but bad memories
Drown me with the sea, oh
(Everytime I try to go back,
Incase of panic attacks, I drink a six pack)
But we won’t last
It’s the end of the run
We burned in the sun
Yeah, I’ll never forget

Yeah, I’ll never forget
Yeah, I’ll never forget
(End of the run
Burn in the sun, yeah
End of the run)
Yeah, I’ll never forget

Skin like fire
Warm inside
Twist like wires
(Stay by my side, stay by my side)
Felt so high, yeah
Before goodbyes
(These moments) burn in the sun
Burn in the sun
Skin like fire
Warm inside
Twist like wires
(Stay by my side, stay by my side)
Felt so high, yeah
Before goodbyes
(These moments) burn in the sun
Yeah, I’ll never forget

Yeah, I’ll never forget

(The sun will set, it’s dark again
And oh, let’s start again slow)
(End of the run, burn in the sun, end of the run)

Yeah, I’ll never forget

(The sun will set, it’s dark again
And oh, let’s start again slow)
(End of the run, burn in the sun, end of the run)
Yeah, I’ll never forget
I’m melting into ashes
Heat got into my own head
Yeah, I’m burning, I’m burning"
"
And it begins
The sudden urge to fly
I’m checking my list
Oh heavens, come help me
I can’t help it, I savor it
I’m addicted to the taste of blood, yeah

Lock up the doors right
There’s no escape tonight
Cover their eyes
Set them in fire
Nothing can stop us now, yeah
Dead or alive, we’re loud, yeah
Let it all out
(Let it all out in sight)

Yeah we dance around the moon
Under raining blood
Let the velvet clothe the ground
Under broken hearts
Break the seams off like the yellow split navy skies
Shining through, shining through
Past the wailing cries
Yeah we swerve on through the night
Over Half Moon Bay
Falling to the sand over where our bodies will lay
As we float on gently down with the raining glass
Smiling through, smiling through our eyes

Stop, can you hear me crying out loud?
Yeah, I’m crawling out now yeah 
Oh bury me six feet deep
So you can fall asleep
But that doesn’t work on me, no

Open your eyes, open your eyes
Know that I’m back, yeah
You can’t escape this room
You can’t escape this room

This is the end, this is the end for you
Down with the system, drown with your mister

Yeah we dance around the moon
Under raining blood
Let the velvet clothe the ground
Under broken hearts
Break the seams off like the yellow split navy skies
Shining through, shining through
Past the wailing cries
Yeah we swerve on through the night
Over Half Moon Bay
Falling to the sand over where our bodies will lay
As we float on gently down with the raining glass
Smiling through, smiling through our eyes

And as we fall, pray “I’m sorry” 

Just know that you’ll never get to go home to your mother and your father
But it’s better cause I’ll take you to our Father
It’s like a one way trip and it’s for a good cause
I just let a knife slip and red confetti spews off
Sympathy is what I lack
Just like to attack from the back
I’m like a heart attack, that's a fact yeah 
I’m the Don 
Night til dawn
Easy on
Babble on
You’ll be gone

Lock up the doors right
There’s no escape tonight
Cover their eyes
Set them in fire
Nothing can stop us now, yeah
Dead or alive, we’re loud, yeah
Let it all out
(Let it all out in sight)

Yeah we dance around the moon
Under raining blood
Let the velvet clothe the ground
Under broken hearts
Break the seams off like the yellow split navy skies
Shining through, shining through
Past the wailing cries
Yeah we swerve on through the night
Over Half Moon Bay
Falling to the sand over where our bodies will lay
As we float on gently down with the raining glass
Smiling through, smiling through our eyes"
"
Here it is again
Same routine, the same old friends
Dress like everyone, the same old things
Go to work and drive the same old lane
(Turn it up)
Swallow all happy pills just like everyone else
Follow orders on screen and take the paycheck
Leave at 5, yeah, all the time
Go to sleep around 9
And say goodnight to LIFE, yeah,
Til the sunrise
I don’t know why oh why
When I start to feel like this
I’m forced to sing this:
(And it goes like this)
All of us can’t see our future clearly
All of us live life mindlessly, yeah
Just live our life til we die
Don’t even know what we like
Go under, go under, go under
It keeps repeating, repeating
Til we lose track of the days in the calendar
I follow orders, like others, so aimlessly
But I wanna break cause I cannot take this for another night
It seems I’m going crazy, yeah
Can’t take it easy, yeah
Follow everyone’s rhythm
Stick with the same algorithm to sell ‘em, yeah
Culture full of blame for those who are not the same
(Is this what you want now?)
Longing for revolution
Don’t need a cult religion
What are we dancing for now?
Copy-paste, indulge us right now
That’s the way it goes and that’s the way it goes
(And all I gotta say is)
All of us can’t see our future clearly
All of us live life mindlessly, yeah
Just live our life til we die
Don’t even know what we like
Go under, go under, go under
They thought we wouldn’t notice this orchestrated bliss
But none of me want to be a part of this, yeah
Gotta run from it all
Lay low, gotta crawl
Forget all the words they made us call
All of us can’t see our future clearly
All of us live life mindlessly, yeah
Just living our life in fear
So we gotta go under, go under All of us can’t see our future clearly
All of us live life mindlessly, yeah
Just live our life til we die
Don’t even know what we like
Go under, go under, go underAll of us can’t see our future clearly
All of us live life mindlessly, yeah
Just live our life til we die
Don’t even know what we like
Go under, go under, go under"

Everyone is best artists!
It is sooo excited for me!!
I hope you all do great job!!!

I really like Self-Portrait. And this event will feature their vocalist, so I can't hide my excitement! That was great news for me and made me happy. I don't really like summer, but I'm really looking forward to this year's event. Thank you Mudia. Their husky and beautiful singing voices sometimes scream powerfully and sometimes subtly soothe. I know they are difficult techniques. But he does it well. It builds a story over the song and creates a margin for the viewer to substitute emotions. They are essential to music. Do you agree?
In particular, I like one of their works, "If you can meet at the live house". It goes in 6-8 time signatures at medium tempo. It's the same beat all the way through, but that's why you can clearly hear the ups and downs of his amazing voice. I listened to that song many times. And I am impressed again and again. even now.
I don't know any singer-songwriters other than him, but I'm sure they'll be on the same stage as him, so I think they'll be great too. It excites me so much. I'm sure they will create a very happy time tonight. I feel honored to be able to spend time together as that audience.
May they have many joys! It may actually be that I have already been given to them.
thank you!

The medicine is setting in
My lungs gasp for oxygen
And blood fills my throat
I drown 'til I float
My sunken heart-shaped by erosion

I can't stop myself
I find that I run for the window, the window
I can't trust myself
Voices start to echo ""you reap what you sow""
I can't save myself
I'm stuck in life, between the surfaces and the burrows
Bury my deep with my sorrows
All I'm looking for now deep inside is another day

I'm bleeding and pleading for a silver lining
I'm sitting and waiting for some light to shine in
It's harder to breathe tonight
So I toughen up my skin so I can fight

I can't stop myself
I find that I run for the window, the window
I can't trust myself
Voices start to echo ""you reap what you sow""
I can't save myself
I'm stuck in life, between the surfaces and the burrows
Buried with my soul, bury my soul
I'll carry myself

Isn't it amazing how I spent my life praying
Yet I'm deprived, all empty inside, and I'm petrified
All my life I searched for
Answers and for a mentor
And books hidden within broken, opened golden sunken drawers
My eyes open but I can't see
What life lies just ahead of me
Oh God, all I ask for now is that you don't
let me sleep again alone with my bed
Don't ask me, cause I can't follow through with God's plans
I ain't good enough for God's plans

(Don't) let me sleep again in my bed
Don't ask me, cause I can't follow through with God's plans
I ain't good enough for God's plans
I ain't good enough
I ain't good enough for God's plans
I ain't good enough
(Hands crossed, open one eye)
(Hands crossed, open one)
The medicine is setting in
My lungs gasp for oxygen
And blood fills my throat
I drown 'til I float
My sunken heart-shaped by erosion

I can't stop myself
I find that I run for the window, the window
I can't trust myself
Voices start to echo ""you reap what you sow""
I can't save myself
I'm stuck in life, between the surfaces and the burrows
Bury my deep with my sorrows
All I'm looking for now deep inside is another day

I'm bleeding and pleading for a silver lining
I'm sitting and waiting for some light to shine in
It's harder to breathe tonight
So I toughen up my skin so I can fight

I can't stop myself
I find that I run for the window, the window
I can't trust myself
Voices start to echo ""you reap what you sow""
I can't save myself
I'm stuck in life, between the surfaces and the burrows
Buried with my soul, bury my soul
I'll carry myself

Isn't it amazing how I spent my life praying
Yet I'm deprived, all empty inside, and I'm petrified
All my life I searched for
Answers and for a mentor
And books hidden within broken, opened golden sunken drawers
My eyes open but I can't see
What life lies just ahead of me
Oh God, all I ask for now is that you don't
let me sleep again alone with my bed
Don't ask me, cause I can't follow through with God's plans
I ain't good enough for God's plans

(Don't) let me sleep again in my bed
Don't ask me, cause I can't follow through with God's plans
I ain't good enough for God's plans
I ain't good enough
I ain't good enough for God's plans
I ain't good enough
(Hands crossed, open one eye)
(Hands crossed, open one)"
"
I’ll walk when I need to walk
Not when you tell me to
When push comes to shove
It's not enough to stop me move
Fell down a couple times
You like to watch me lose
Like to watch me lose, yeah

Hit 'em with the low
The front to the back rows, yeah
Tell you when to go
Get down to the floor

You really wanna know
What I carry when I sing,
The sacrifice I bring,
All the people I left?
I risk it all
And sometimes it's hard to believe
It's so easy not to forget and let it go
I really wanna know
When dreams get into sync
And things start to get deep
All the chances that wait
I'll take them all
Keep moving forget the ignorance

Lights out
Get 'em begging for a replay

Now hit 'em with the low
Yeah, I'm never gonna bow down
Regardless of how much Imma fall out
Still I got doubts, but I gotta hold out
This is the life I decided to scout
And up with the breakout, yeah
All the way to the radio
Up top, non-stop on your stereo
'Til all your speakers blow

Do you know 
What I carry when I sing,
The sacrifice I bring,
All the people I left?
I risk it all
And sometimes it's hard to believe
It's so easy not to forget and let it go
I really wanna know
When dreams get into sync
And things start to get deep
All the chances that wait
I'll take them all
Keep moving forget the ignorance

Hit 'em with the low
The front to the back rows, yeah
Tell you when to go
Get down to the floor

You really wanna know
What I carry when I sing,
The sacrifice I bring,
All the people I left?
I risk it all
And sometimes it's hard to believe
It's so easy not to forget and let it go
I really wanna know
When dreams get into sync
And things start to get deep
All the chances that wait
I'll take them all
Keep moving forget the ignorance"
"
Every time I lie is another day alone
With nobody else at home
And every time I cry is another moment into stone
Pour cement into my bones
And I stay up all night in low light
Get myself stuck in my own mind
Cause I'm so fixated in you
Thinking about all we went through
After all these years thinking
I got myself sinking down into nothing
Spend all my self-loathing, yeah
Most days, I find myself contemplating in bed
And always, I get myself trapped inside of my head
I won't say that I'm happy when I'm not, but instead
Every day, to myself, I fantasize being dead
And I wonder how much longer do I falter?
How much further? Will I ever become stronger
Like my mother and my father?
Will I ever get to conquer mental monsters that I conjured?
I will never find an answer, so I ponder and I wander.
I'm another complex runner.
I wanna cover when I suffer, but I stutter
And the thunder got me running for the covers.
I'm still the same, stuck in last summer.
Looking back,
Looping back forever.
All the confusion that goes with delusion
The feel of intrusion from lack of solution
Is nothing but stress-induced
And sometimes I slip from the saddle
Whenever these demons win the battle
Flood my head with thoughts 'til I rattle
And all of these words are making it worse
Every time I cry is another day alone
With nobody else at home
And every time I lie is another moment into stone
Pour cement into my bones
Lack of a heart, but persist to exist
Art is my biggest assist
Cannot pertain to a kiss
And I have to resist
And dismiss a flick to my wrist
Once in a while, I rely on a dial
Memories of you got me crying in denial
Life is a trial, but it's hard to compile
A list of defenses to make it worthwhile
Mental fences are chainlink to senses
Consensus commences pretenses
And this, here, now dispenses offences, yeah
All the confusion that goes with delusion
The feel of intrusion from lack of solution
Is nothing but stress-induced
Every time I cry is another day alone
With nobody else at home
And every time I lie is another moment into stone
Pour cement into my bones
(Every time I cry)
(No one else at home)
(And I feel so cold)
Every time I cry is another day alone
With nobody else at home
And every time I lie is another moment into stone
Pour cement into my bones"
"
Climb so high all the forces cannot bind me
These enforcers cannot find me
Yeah, these bullies can't define me
Fists like stone, when they push they cannot break me
Evoke fear when we use force
They use violence to keep us in course
When we lose control,
They patrol the streets to keep us in check and locked indoors.
Abuse of the badge and the point of a gun
Fear of skin color has only begun
Hide behind the blue and the threat of a stun
Beating our freedom with a dirty baton
We'll blow like dynamite
We'll engrave our names
Our stage is a fucking warzone
We're dynamite
Be engulfed in flames
Our hate is deep in our bones
We're dynamite
We're insane
The game's to reclaim our splattered blood throne
We're dynamite
Stay course from the sunlight
Pretend that we're alright
Keep telling yourself that
""They don't have to know.
Yeah, they don't have to know.""
Blow the spotlight
And hide in the moonlight
And tell yourself that
""They don't have to know.""
Yeah, keep on tellin 'em that
""We are okay.""
Okay, keep on faking fine
Until they all stay, all stay away
Til we make a new name, new name
Until we all wake into alarm"
"
Stressed out, wandering in a train station
Lights out, stuck around for a temptation
The wind's in, howling through the dark tunnels
and I can't find the muzzle for these subtle rebuttals
Assemble to crumble
My life turns to rubble
With each struggle, my life turns into a puzzle and
Obliteration is my only vindication
The medication's sensation doesn't steer assimilation
Ever since that day she left me for you,
all these issues I'm going through
have left me obsessed with you
I need to throw these problems out, so bottles up
Haunting me all the way from December
And all I gotta say is:
Listen to me boy
You better call her ""baby""
and make sure that you listen to everything she has to say
(Don't mind me, I'm just a little low)
Listen to me boy, you better treat her like she's the only one for you
I played just a little wrong
But I need to man up and let her go
I need to drown these demons bottled up
But every time, I run to cover-up
I'm not much of a fighter
I don't wanna remember December
I just wanna forget all about her
I talk too much, but quick to quit to let go
Take no for an answer to wage on
A mental vacation, or rely on sedation
laced onto a rope in a station
Confused by frustration and my inner narrations
Just know that when you go home
You'll never sleep alone
Bu the image of you two together
Will keep haunting me forever
Listen to me boy
You better call her ""baby""
and make sure that you listen to everything she has to say
(Don't mind me, I'm just a little low)
Listen to me boy, you better treat her like she's the only one for you
I played just a little wrong
But I need to man up and let her go
I don't understand
Why she had to go
I don't understand at all
I don't understand
why she had to go and leave me
Listen to me boy
You better call her ""baby""
and make sure that you listen to everything she has to say
(Don't mind me, I'm just a little low)
Listen to me boy, you better treat her like she's the only one for you
I played just a little wrong
But I need to man up and let her go"
"
I stay up later recently and question myself endlessly.
More and more I start to see the person that I’m meant to be;
My inner monster, a disappointer, claw up thoughts until I rot.
And every day’s the same.
I’m sick of me.
I’m so sick of all of you.
I’m afraid of this monster inside of me, but I like to peek in so curiously.
Drags me inside down to my knees.
It eats me up like a cannibal, so I resort to an Adderall.
Just 1 pill to chill and 5 pills to kill.
Shot of NyQuil so I can sit still.
Why’d you treat me like an animal?
Toss me to the side like I’m expendable?
Light up my fuse, I’m so flammable.
Back up before I break your mandible.
Why’re you even mad? It’s just the old shit.
You treat it like you never even saw it.
Back up or fight.
I’m never seeing the light.
I am the scene of the crime,
cause people never want to listen to my...
Voices and emotions swallow me whole into these oceans.
Who am I? Who am I? Who am I?
Endless shots of Hennessy spiraling down into the end of me.
Who am I? Who am I? Who am I?
Listen! No, you don’t listen!
You back me up all the way to the kitchen!
Swallow my pills, so I can silence the voice.
I’m banging my head just to beat and drown out the noise.
Thin out the blood in my flow, so I can go sleep and pass out on the floor.
But you just don’t ever listen.
Fuck all you heathens.
Pass over me while I’m bleeding.
Waiting for that little halo.
Not even a little “hello”?
Tired of all the hell no’s.
All I want is to be seen.
Find out answers to life’s meaning, yeah.
Why’d you treat me like an animal?
Toss me to the side like I’m expendable?
Light up my fuse, I’m so flammable.
Back up before I break your mandible.
Why’re you even mad? It’s just the old shit.
You treat it like you never even saw it.
Back up or fight.
I’m never seeing the light.
I am the scene of the crime,
cause people never want to listen to my...
Voices and emotions swallow me whole into these oceans.
Who am I? Who am I? Who am I?
Endless shots of Hennessy spiraling down into the end of me.
Who am I? Who am I? Who am I?"
"

(Part I)
Remember all the lives you've abandoned and burned
Yeah, we did that together
Waste away every day now, yeah
Let it burn in fire
All the sins you hide from me
I've seen it all now thoroughly
Everyone can see you shut down for weeks, yeah
(What do you have to say?)
My mind is a turnstile
Spits lethal projectiles
Head working in freestyle
Can't help that I'm hostile
My profile is senile
My heart into exile
Compile all the thoughts into ammo I be making is worthwhile
Push down at the roots, until I shoot
Alibi is all I need
So I move triggers to suit,
But I dispute advice
I pollute all my mind
I repute
I'm burning on, I'm the paragon
I'm burning on, I'm the paragon
(Part II)
Is this what I have become?
A ghost embracing this gun?
And now the mirror me keeps on mocking me
Tearing down my sanity
Reality is hurting me
And all I see is fake to me
Trigger to decide
What happens to my life
I'm praying to the sky
No, I'm not, I'm not the man inside
Strong enough, I put it all behind me
I throw it all, blow it all to the floor
All the pain I hide I inside of me
Close my eyes and cry so I can breathe
Throw it all, blow it all to the floor
There's nowhere else to run
I'm holding onto no one
(Say it one more, baby)
There's nowhere else to run
I'm holding onto no one, no"
"

God, are you listening?
Can you hear me weeping?
All I'm asking for is just one thing:
Erase all the shit inside of me

Dear who's ever hearing this,
Sorry that you got stuck with this
I don't know why I'm even like this
I just know I'm not fine with this

Won't you sit and hear me vent?
Cause I got shit deep inside my head
I said shit that I never meant
I regret all the shit I sent

I am always late on rent
And now my car just got a dent
That I don't know how I can mend
Cause all my money has been spent

And I can barely afford to live inside this dorm
I'm so outside the norm
I question why I was even born

God, are you listening?
Can you hear me weeping?
All I'm asking for is just one thing:
Erase all the shit inside of me
God are you listening? Can you hear me weeping?
All I'm asking for is just one thing:
Forgive all the sins inside of me

Every night I stay up
If I sleep, dreams make me wake up
Dreams of me messing up
Reminds me that I should be gone
Every day, it's escalating
And my brain starts pulsating
What's the meaning of all of this?
This large abyss, a mental itch
I start to inch toward my wrist
My bucket list thrown off a bridge
Lost in the mist
I am not missed
Nobody wants me
Fated to be lonely
I am so sorry
For my aggravated tone
And the endless calls from my cellphone

Tonight is the night I decide
The night that I might end my life
Invisible eyes immortalize all of my lies into the sky and
I long for a meaning
Into my own life, I know I'm repeating
But now, I am bleeding and losing my breathing
I think I am dying

God, are you listening?
Can you hear me weeping?
All I'm asking for is just one thing:
Erase all the shit inside of me
God are you listening? Can you hear me weeping?
All I'm asking for is just one thing:
Forgive all the sins inside of me"
"
“He doesn’t want to talk to me.
He doesn’t even look at me.
So I’m leavin’, leavin’, yeah.”
 
That’s what you always say to me.
You cry over the phone with me
Saying, “what am I supposed to do?”
 
“He did it again yesterday.
I’ll probably call it off today.
Yeah, I’m leavin’, leavin’, yeah.”
 
You hide under the shade today
Catch a glimpse of the bruise down on your knee
Behind the lens, a stream of teardrops
 
Back both of us were kids
You would cry all through the night
Pull you closer by the shoulder
‘til all your tears were dry
And I’d hope for a better, sweeter love
 
*For you, baby
Just know that I’ll be strong for you
I stay up lately
Just wondering what I’m supposed to do
With how I feel
I bury them inside
 
“He doesn’t want to talk to me.
He doesn’t even look at me.
So I’m leavin’, leavin’, yeah.”
Yeah, I just wish that I had enough strength inside
To pull you away to protect you from him, too
 
Every night I dream and, yeah, all I ever think of is only you
All the pain endured, I want to carry them for you, too
 
When I wake and open both my eyes
To the fact that you’re gone
I’ll be wondering
What am I supposed to,
What am I supposed to do?
(I’ll do what I have to)
 
*For you, baby
Just know that I’ll be strong for you
I stay up lately
I’m beating myself at night
Just wondering what I’m supposed to do
With how I feel
I bury them inside
 
Every time I dream I wake up
When I want to dream, I wake up from everything
‘til I find a way
I’ll make sure of me to stay
With how I feel inside"
"
Drank, so I can’t see my own face
Least, I see no consequences, no fakes
I don’t even know what I’m feeling, no
Give no fucks, I’m shouting, yelling “no fakes”
I don’t mind, I don’t mind, I am mine
Life decline, I always am adamant
Out of line, I confine, draw the line 
Undermine serpentine fingerprints
Salt stains litter the glass, trickling down all the windows 
I don’t know, but I know I can draw ornaments from my own sanity fragments
Sinking low to the floor
Ripping petals off a rose
Blood dribbling down from my nose
Voices inside of my head, they won’t let me go to bed
Sanity thin as a thread, my head full of lead
Why the fuck do my eyes see red?
Drank, so I can’t see my own face
Least, I see no consequences, no fakes
I don’t even know what I’m feeling, no
Give no fucks, I’m shouting, yelling “no fakes”
Enemies inside of me found within my inner vicinity
Would you give me lobotomy for the sake of the end of me?
Life is a cinema dilemma systema to the mother fucking 3rd degree
Anxiety got me seeing all these ghosts get me til I begin to coast
Bring me down when I’m most like to close all the way down
There’s no other way around to avoid another breakdown
Just another countdown
Gonna turn slowly into a beast
Have myself another feast til I’m drunk and down to my knees
I am getting tired of all this bullshit
I just wanna do what I please
This is the end of my time, end of my prime
Fight til they ring out the chime
Bite til they fade out the light, call in the night
Don’t wanna lose what is right
Drank, so I can’t see my own face
Least, I see no consequences, no fakes
I don’t even know what I’m feeling, no
Give no fucks, I’m shouting, yelling “no fakes”
Yeah, I always thought that my life would come bite me,
But I never thought I would be found so soon
If God does exist, I would be dismissed and
Sentenced to never again see the moon
I would burn forever in fire
Amidst all the sinners on pyres
For all that I’ve done in my life, 
I’d become a lesson in God’s empire
This is what I’ll get from the priest once I’m deceased
A breath of fresh air will release
But I never thought this would end oh so soon
(And I repeat again, again)
Drank, so I can’t see my own face
Least, I see no consequences, no fakes
I don’t even know what I’m feeling, no
Give no fucks, I’m shouting, yelling “no fakes”
Drank, so I can’t see my own face
Least, I see no consequences, no fakes
(Don’t even know, I’m yelling “no fakes”)
Drank, so I can’t see my own face
Least, I see no consequences, no fakes
(Don’t even know, I’m yelling “no fakes”)"
"

Just watch your step, you’ll slip and fall
Can barely see, but it’s not enough, no
Even in pain, you can’t let go
Just stand up, breath in-out, just hold on
Through and through, we’ll realize what’s burning in our eyes 
Let the fire burn (let the fire burn)
We live and learn (Don’t let them with a takedown)
Stuck in life
I ask me, “why am I right?”
I can’t deny the need to climb and make it mine
Ignore the pain, I
Before I lay down 
Against the pour down
I must control how my life will turn out 
So I can break out amidst the fall out
Deter the breakdown
I’m just another lost soul
A black crow in the white snow
I believe, I dream
I can feel the sparks beneath my feet
You’re not slowing me down
I’m making my way up
You can catch me in a melody
(Cause I)
I believe, I dream
Even at times when my heart bleeds
So, I don’t give my heart, my heart away
Yeah, I know it’s complicated
But I am suffocating head to toe
I don’t know what I’m doing, 
But “I feel fine”
I tell myself that every time
“It’s alright if I die”
Drown out the noise I hide inside with feelings of stress
I try to fight it
Ignore the pain, I
Before I lay down 
Against the pour down
I must control how
The thought of being less
The thought of being pressed down
“I’m feeling depressed now”
Sing out “I’m just another lost soul,
A black crow in the white snow”
Here I am to sing it loud again
I believe, I dream
You can feel the sparks beneath my feet
You’re not slowing me down
I’m making my way up
You can catch me in a melody
(Cause I)
I believe, I dream
Even at times when my heart bleeds
So, I don’t give my heart, my heart away
I can’t bleed anymore (anymore)
I’m losing against my own war
Inside my head, I say things I dread (I dread)
Doubts inside again
I often drown myself with medicine
A disease I need to release
I dream, I dream
I believe, I dream
You can feel the sparks beneath my feet
You’re not slowing me down
I’m making my way up
You can catch me in a melody
(Cause I)
I believe, I dream
Even at times when my heart bleeds
So, I don’t give my heart, my heart away
(my heart away)
You’re not slowing me down
I’m making my way up
You can catch me in a melody
I believe, I dream
Even at times when my heart bleeds
So, I don’t give my heart, my heart
My heart"
"

I wake up alone in bed
A message from you, instead
I’m tired of this distance
When we’re sharing the same rent
I stay up in thought of you
Tired of being see-through
Don’t throw me aside
Inside I lie to myself “we’re fine”

Can you give me a reason
Why I shouldn’t just leave on the weekend?
Iris set to home
But I gotta get back on my own
Make me cry

Don’t leave me all alone
You said, “I never meant to hurt you” once more
But I heard that before
I’m leaving it all alone
Just say “I never loved you”
I’m on my own

I open my mouth and I breathe
But words just won’t come and I freeze
And I’m down on my knees
I’m counting to three, yeah
I’m feeling my pride leave, yeah
And as I kept my eyes low
My blood started to sizzle
My inner me got out to see
This act thrown out the window
“Feel sorry for me” is out the door
I can finally be

“Now you do what I say”
Now this is my stage
And watch me dance across the floor
Swinging a steel blade (telling me lies)
Guess this is how it ends
This is how life bends

Don’t leave me all alone
You said, “I never meant to hurt you” once more
But I heard that before
I’m leaving it all alone
Just say “I never loved you”
I’m on my own

My arms can’t hold
(watching you, watching you)
I just can’t watch you right now
(Watch you go, watch you go)

Before you say goodbye
Look me in my eyes
And watch me burn

(Don’t leave me all alone)
Why don’t take my heart and just break
Take it all away
Yet I find myself say

Don’t leave me all alone
You said, “I never meant to hurt you” once more
But I heard that before
I’m leaving it all alone
Just say “I never loved you”
I’m on my own

Don’t leave me all alone
Can you hear me?
(But I heard that before)
I’m leaving it all alone
Just say “I never loved you”
I’m on my own"
"
I’m melting into ashes
(Stay by my side, stay by my side)
Heat got into my own head
(Stay by my side)
Yeah, I’m burning, I’m burning

Skin like fire
Warm inside
Twist like wires
(Stay by my side, stay by my side)
Felt so high, yeah
Before goodbyes
(These moments) burn in the sun
Yeah, I’ll never forget

Yeah, I’ll never forget

Is this what you mean by “reminiscing”?
Cause I remember it another way
Can’t you see you and me were never meant to be
(We’re always meant to be)
(I remember it like it was just yesterday,
Everything in my mind replays)
Just like with me, but bad memories
Drown me with the sea, oh
(Everytime I try to go back,
Incase of panic attacks, I drink a six pack)
But we won’t last
It’s the end of the run
We burned in the sun
Yeah, I’ll never forget

Yeah, I’ll never forget
Yeah, I’ll never forget
(End of the run
Burn in the sun, yeah
End of the run)
Yeah, I’ll never forget

Skin like fire
Warm inside
Twist like wires
(Stay by my side, stay by my side)
Felt so high, yeah
Before goodbyes
(These moments) burn in the sun
Burn in the sun
Skin like fire
Warm inside
Twist like wires
(Stay by my side, stay by my side)
Felt so high, yeah
Before goodbyes
(These moments) burn in the sun
Yeah, I’ll never forget

Yeah, I’ll never forget

(The sun will set, it’s dark again
And oh, let’s start again slow)
(End of the run, burn in the sun, end of the run)

Yeah, I’ll never forget

(The sun will set, it’s dark again
And oh, let’s start again slow)
(End of the run, burn in the sun, end of the run)
Yeah, I’ll never forget
I’m melting into ashes
Heat got into my own head
Yeah, I’m burning, I’m burning"
"
And it begins
The sudden urge to fly
I’m checking my list
Oh heavens, come help me
I can’t help it, I savor it
I’m addicted to the taste of blood, yeah

Lock up the doors right
There’s no escape tonight
Cover their eyes
Set them in fire
Nothing can stop us now, yeah
Dead or alive, we’re loud, yeah
Let it all out
(Let it all out in sight)

Yeah we dance around the moon
Under raining blood
Let the velvet clothe the ground
Under broken hearts
Break the seams off like the yellow split navy skies
Shining through, shining through
Past the wailing cries
Yeah we swerve on through the night
Over Half Moon Bay
Falling to the sand over where our bodies will lay
As we float on gently down with the raining glass
Smiling through, smiling through our eyes

Stop, can you hear me crying out loud?
Yeah, I’m crawling out now yeah 
Oh bury me six feet deep
So you can fall asleep
But that doesn’t work on me, no

Open your eyes, open your eyes
Know that I’m back, yeah
You can’t escape this room
You can’t escape this room

This is the end, this is the end for you
Down with the system, drown with your mister

Yeah we dance around the moon
Under raining blood
Let the velvet clothe the ground
Under broken hearts
Break the seams off like the yellow split navy skies
Shining through, shining through
Past the wailing cries
Yeah we swerve on through the night
Over Half Moon Bay
Falling to the sand over where our bodies will lay
As we float on gently down with the raining glass
Smiling through, smiling through our eyes

And as we fall, pray “I’m sorry” 

Just know that you’ll never get to go home to your mother and your father
But it’s better cause I’ll take you to our Father
It’s like a one way trip and it’s for a good cause
I just let a knife slip and red confetti spews off
Sympathy is what I lack
Just like to attack from the back
I’m like a heart attack, that's a fact yeah 
I’m the Don 
Night til dawn
Easy on
Babble on
You’ll be gone

Lock up the doors right
There’s no escape tonight
Cover their eyes
Set them in fire
Nothing can stop us now, yeah
Dead or alive, we’re loud, yeah
Let it all out
(Let it all out in sight)

Yeah we dance around the moon
Under raining blood
Let the velvet clothe the ground
Under broken hearts
Break the seams off like the yellow split navy skies
Shining through, shining through
Past the wailing cries
Yeah we swerve on through the night
Over Half Moon Bay
Falling to the sand over where our bodies will lay
As we float on gently down with the raining glass
Smiling through, smiling through our eyes"
"
Here it is again
Same routine, the same old friends
Dress like everyone, the same old things
Go to work and drive the same old lane
(Turn it up)
Swallow all happy pills just like everyone else
Follow orders on screen and take the paycheck
Leave at 5, yeah, all the time
Go to sleep around 9
And say goodnight to LIFE, yeah,
Til the sunrise
I don’t know why oh why
When I start to feel like this
I’m forced to sing this:
(And it goes like this)
All of us can’t see our future clearly
All of us live life mindlessly, yeah
Just live our life til we die
Don’t even know what we like
Go under, go under, go under
It keeps repeating, repeating
Til we lose track of the days in the calendar
I follow orders, like others, so aimlessly
But I wanna break cause I cannot take this for another night
It seems I’m going crazy, yeah
Can’t take it easy, yeah
Follow everyone’s rhythm
Stick with the same algorithm to sell ‘em, yeah
Culture full of blame for those who are not the same
(Is this what you want now?)
Longing for revolution
Don’t need a cult religion
What are we dancing for now?
Copy-paste, indulge us right now
That’s the way it goes and that’s the way it goes
(And all I gotta say is)
All of us can’t see our future clearly
All of us live life mindlessly, yeah
Just live our life til we die
Don’t even know what we like
Go under, go under, go under
They thought we wouldn’t notice this orchestrated bliss
But none of me want to be a part of this, yeah
Gotta run from it all
Lay low, gotta crawl
Forget all the words they made us call
All of us can’t see our future clearly
All of us live life mindlessly, yeah
Just living our life in fear
So we gotta go under, go under All of us can’t see our future clearly
All of us live life mindlessly, yeah
Just live our life til we die
Don’t even know what we like
Go under, go under, go underAll of us can’t see our future clearly
All of us live life mindlessly, yeah
Just live our life til we die
Don’t even know what we like
Go under, go under, go under"
I believe, I dream
I can feel the sparks beneath my feet
You’re not slowing me down
I’m making my way up
You can catch me in a melody
(Cause I)
I believe, I dream
Even at times when my heart bleeds
So, I don’t give my heart, my heart away
Yeah, I know it’s complicated
But I am suffocating head to toe
I don’t know what I’m doing, 
But “I feel fine”
I tell myself that every time
“It’s alright if I die”
Drown out the noise I hide inside with feelings of stress
I try to fight it
Ignore the pain, I
Before I lay down 
Against the pour down
I must control how
The thought of being less
The thought of being pressed down
“I’m feeling depressed now”
Sing out “I’m just another lost soul,
A black crow in the white snow”
Here I am to sing it loud again
I believe, I dream
You can feel the sparks beneath my feet
You’re not slowing me down
I’m making my way up
You can catch me in a melody
(Cause I)
I believe, I dream
Even at times when my heart bleeds
So, I don’t give my heart, my heart away
I can’t bleed anymore (anymore)
I’m losing against my own war
Inside my head, I say things I dread (I dread)
Doubts inside again
I often drown myself with medicine
A disease I need to release
I dream, I dream
I believe, I dream
You can feel the sparks beneath my feet
You’re not slowing me down
I’m making my way up
You can catch me in a melody
(Cause I)
I believe, I dream
Even at times when my heart bleeds
So, I don’t give my heart, my heart away
(my heart away)
You’re not slowing me down
I’m making my way up
You can catch me in a melody
I believe, I dream
Even at times when my heart bleeds
So, I don’t give my heart, my heart
My heart"
"

I wake up alone in bed
A message from you, instead
I’m tired of this distance
When we’re sharing the same rent
I stay up in thought of you
Tired of being see-through
Don’t throw me aside
Inside I lie to myself “we’re fine”

Can you give me a reason
Why I shouldn’t just leave on the weekend?
Iris set to home
But I gotta get back on my own
Make me cry

Don’t leave me all alone
You said, “I never meant to hurt you” once more
But I heard that before
I’m leaving it all alone
Just say “I never loved you”
I’m on my own

I open my mouth and I breathe
But words just won’t come and I freeze
And I’m down on my knees
I’m counting to three, yeah
I’m feeling my pride leave, yeah
And as I kept my eyes low
My blood started to sizzle
My inner me got out to see
This act thrown out the window
“Feel sorry for me” is out the door
I can finally be

“Now you do what I say”
Now this is my stage
And watch me dance across the floor
Swinging a steel blade (telling me lies)
Guess this is how it ends
This is how life bends

Don’t leave me all alone
You said, “I never meant to hurt you” once more
But I heard that before
I’m leaving it all alone
Just say “I never loved you”
I’m on my own

My arms can’t hold
(watching you, watching you)
I just can’t watch you right now
(Watch you go, watch you go)

Before you say goodbye
Look me in my eyes
And watch me burn

(Don’t leave me all alone)
Why don’t take my heart and just break
Take it all away
Yet I find myself say

Don’t leave me all alone
You said, “I never meant to hurt you” once more
But I heard that before
I’m leaving it all alone
Just say “I never loved you”
I’m on my own

Don’t leave me all alone
Can you hear me?
(But I heard that before)
I’m leaving it all alone
Just say “I never loved you”
I’m on my own"
"
I’m melting into ashes
(Stay by my side, stay by my side)
Heat got into my own head
(Stay by my side)
Yeah, I’m burning, I’m burning

Skin like fire
Warm inside
Twist like wires
(Stay by my side, stay by my side)
Felt so high, yeah
Before goodbyes
(These moments) burn in the sun
Yeah, I’ll never forget

Yeah, I’ll never forget

Is this what you mean by “reminiscing”?
Cause I remember it another way
Can’t you see you and me were never meant to be
(We’re always meant to be)
(I remember it like it was just yesterday,
Everything in my mind replays)
Just like with me, but bad memories
Drown me with the sea, oh
(Everytime I try to go back,
Incase of panic attacks, I drink a six pack)
But we won’t last
It’s the end of the run
We burned in the sun
Yeah, I’ll never forget

Yeah, I’ll never forget
Yeah, I’ll never forget
(End of the run
Burn in the sun, yeah
End of the run)
Yeah, I’ll never forget

Skin like fire
Warm inside
Twist like wires
(Stay by my side, stay by my side)
Felt so high, yeah
Before goodbyes
(These moments) burn in the sun
Burn in the sun
Skin like fire
Warm inside
Twist like wires
(Stay by my side, stay by my side)
Felt so high, yeah
Before goodbyes
(These moments) burn in the sun
Yeah, I’ll never forget

Yeah, I’ll never forget

(The sun will set, it’s dark again
And oh, let’s start again slow)
(End of the run, burn in the sun, end of the run)

Yeah, I’ll never forget

(The sun will set, it’s dark again
And oh, let’s start again slow)
(End of the run, burn in the sun, end of the run)
Yeah, I’ll never forget
I’m melting into ashes
Heat got into my own head
Yeah, I’m burning, I’m burning"
"
And it begins
The sudden urge to fly
I’m checking my list
Oh heavens, come help me
I can’t help it, I savor it
I’m addicted to the taste of blood, yeah

Lock up the doors right
There’s no escape tonight
Cover their eyes
Set them in fire
Nothing can stop us now, yeah
Dead or alive, we’re loud, yeah
Let it all out
(Let it all out in sight)

Yeah we dance around the moon
Under raining blood
Let the velvet clothe the ground
Under broken hearts
Break the seams off like the yellow split navy skies
Shining through, shining through
Past the wailing cries
Yeah we swerve on through the night
Over Half Moon Bay
Falling to the sand over where our bodies will lay
As we float on gently down with the raining glass
Smiling through, smiling through our eyes

Stop, can you hear me crying out loud?
Yeah, I’m crawling out now yeah 
Oh bury me six feet deep
So you can fall asleep
But that doesn’t work on me, no

Open your eyes, open your eyes
Know that I’m back, yeah
You can’t escape this room
You can’t escape this room

This is the end, this is the end for you
Down with the system, drown with your mister

Yeah we dance around the moon
Under raining blood
Let the velvet clothe the ground
Under broken hearts
Break the seams off like the yellow split navy skies
Shining through, shining through
Past the wailing cries
Yeah we swerve on through the night
Over Half Moon Bay
Falling to the sand over where our bodies will lay
As we float on gently down with the raining glass
Smiling through, smiling through our eyes

And as we fall, pray “I’m sorry” 

Just know that you’ll never get to go home to your mother and your father
But it’s better cause I’ll take you to our Father
It’s like a one way trip and it’s for a good cause
I just let a knife slip and red confetti spews off
Sympathy is what I lack
Just like to attack from the back
I’m like a heart attack, that's a fact yeah 
I’m the Don 
Night til dawn
Easy on
Babble on
You’ll be gone

Lock up the doors right
There’s no escape tonight
Cover their eyes
Set them in fire
Nothing can stop us now, yeah
Dead or alive, we’re loud, yeah
Let it all out
(Let it all out in sight)

Yeah we dance around the moon
Under raining blood
Let the velvet clothe the ground
Under broken hearts
Break the seams off like the yellow split navy skies
Shining through, shining through
Past the wailing cries
Yeah we swerve on through the night
Over Half Moon Bay
Falling to the sand over where our bodies will lay
As we float on gently down with the raining glass
Smiling through, smiling through our eyes"
"
Here it is again
Same routine, the same old friends
Dress like everyone, the same old things
Go to work and drive the same old lane
(Turn it up)
Swallow all happy pills just like everyone else
Follow orders on screen and take the paycheck
Leave at 5, yeah, all the time
Go to sleep around 9
And say goodnight to LIFE, yeah,
Til the sunrise
I don’t know why oh why
When I start to feel like this
I’m forced to sing this:
(And it goes like this)
All of us can’t see our future clearly
All of us live life mindlessly, yeah
Just live our life til we die
Don’t even know what we like
Go under, go under, go under
It keeps repeating, repeating
Til we lose track of the days in the calendar
I follow orders, like others, so aimlessly
But I wanna break cause I cannot take this for another night
It seems I’m going crazy, yeah
Can’t take it easy, yeah
Follow everyone’s rhythm
Stick with the same algorithm to sell ‘em, yeah
Culture full of blame for those who are not the same
(Is this what you want now?)
Longing for revolution
Don’t need a cult religion
What are we dancing for now?
Copy-paste, indulge us right now
That’s the way it goes and that’s the way it goes
(And all I gotta say is)
All of us can’t see our future clearly
All of us live life mindlessly, yeah
Just live our life til we die
Don’t even know what we like
Go under, go under, go under
They thought we wouldn’t notice this orchestrated bliss
But none of me want to be a part of this, yeah
Gotta run from it all
Lay low, gotta crawl
Forget all the words they made us call
All of us can’t see our future clearly
All of us live life mindlessly, yeah
Just living our life in fear
So we gotta go under, go under All of us can’t see our future clearly
All of us live life mindlessly, yeah
Just live our life til we die
Don’t even know what we like
Go under, go under, go underAll of us can’t see our future clearly
All of us live life mindlessly, yeah
Just live our life til we die
Don’t even know what we like
Go under, go under, go under"

Good luck guys! Def really excited for me!
I hope you all do great job.
 I really like them. And this event will feature their vocalist, so I can't hide my excitement! That was great news for me and made me happy. I don't really like summer, but I'm really looking forward to this year's event. Thank you Mudia. Their husky and beautiful singing voices sometimes scream powerfully and sometimes subtly soothe. I know they are difficult techniques. But he does it well. It builds a story over the song and creates a margin for the viewer to substitute emotions. They are essential to music. Do you agree?
In particular, I like one of their works, "If you can meet at the live house". It goes in 6-8 time signatures at medium tempo. It's the same beat all the way through, but that's why you can clearly hear the ups and downs of his amazing voice. I listened to that song many times. And I am impressed again and again. even now.
I don't know any singer-songwriters other than him, but I'm sure they'll be on the same stage as him, so I think they'll be great too. It excites me so much. I'm sure they will create a very happy time tonight. I feel honored to be able to spend time together as that audience.
May they have many joys! It may actually be that I have already been given to them.
thank you!

The medicine is setting in
My lungs gasp for oxygen
And blood fills my throat
I drown 'til I float
My sunken heart-shaped by erosion

I can't stop myself
I find that I run for the window, the window
I can't trust myself
Voices start to echo ""you reap what you sow""
I can't save myself
I'm stuck in life, between the surfaces and the burrows
Bury my deep with my sorrows
All I'm looking for now deep inside is another day

I'm bleeding and pleading for a silver lining
I'm sitting and waiting for some light to shine in
It's harder to breathe tonight
So I toughen up my skin so I can fight

I can't stop myself
I find that I run for the window, the window
I can't trust myself
Voices start to echo ""you reap what you sow""
I can't save myself
I'm stuck in life, between the surfaces and the burrows
Buried with my soul, bury my soul
I'll carry myself

Isn't it amazing how I spent my life praying
Yet I'm deprived, all empty inside, and I'm petrified
All my life I searched for
Answers and for a mentor
And books hidden within broken, opened golden sunken drawers
My eyes open but I can't see
What life lies just ahead of me
Oh God, all I ask for now is that you don't
let me sleep again alone with my bed
Don't ask me, cause I can't follow through with God's plans
I ain't good enough for God's plans

(Don't) let me sleep again in my bed
Don't ask me, cause I can't follow through with God's plans
I ain't good enough for God's plans
I ain't good enough
I ain't good enough for God's plans
I ain't good enough
(Hands crossed, open one eye)
(Hands crossed, open one)
The medicine is setting in
My lungs gasp for oxygen
And blood fills my throat
I drown 'til I float
My sunken heart-shaped by erosion

I can't stop myself
I find that I run for the window, the window
I can't trust myself
Voices start to echo ""you reap what you sow""
I can't save myself
I'm stuck in life, between the surfaces and the burrows
Bury my deep with my sorrows
All I'm looking for now deep inside is another day

I'm bleeding and pleading for a silver lining
I'm sitting and waiting for some light to shine in
It's harder to breathe tonight
So I toughen up my skin so I can fight

I can't stop myself
I find that I run for the window, the window
I can't trust myself
Voices start to echo ""you reap what you sow""
I can't save myself
I'm stuck in life, between the surfaces and the burrows
Buried with my soul, bury my soul
I'll carry myself

Isn't it amazing how I spent my life praying
Yet I'm deprived, all empty inside, and I'm petrified
All my life I searched for
Answers and for a mentor
And books hidden within broken, opened golden sunken drawers
My eyes open but I can't see
What life lies just ahead of me
Oh God, all I ask for now is that you don't
let me sleep again alone with my bed
Don't ask me, cause I can't follow through with God's plans
I ain't good enough for God's plans

(Don't) let me sleep again in my bed
Don't ask me, cause I can't follow through with God's plans
I ain't good enough for God's plans
I ain't good enough
I ain't good enough for God's plans
I ain't good enough
(Hands crossed, open one eye)
(Hands crossed, open one)"
"
I’ll walk when I need to walk
Not when you tell me to
When push comes to shove
It's not enough to stop me move
Fell down a couple times
You like to watch me lose
Like to watch me lose, yeah

Hit 'em with the low
The front to the back rows, yeah
Tell you when to go
Get down to the floor

You really wanna know
What I carry when I sing,
The sacrifice I bring,
All the people I left?
I risk it all
And sometimes it's hard to believe
It's so easy not to forget and let it go
I really wanna know
When dreams get into sync
And things start to get deep
All the chances that wait
I'll take them all
Keep moving forget the ignorance

Lights out
Get 'em begging for a replay

Now hit 'em with the low
Yeah, I'm never gonna bow down
Regardless of how much Imma fall out
Still I got doubts, but I gotta hold out
This is the life I decided to scout
And up with the breakout, yeah
All the way to the radio
Up top, non-stop on your stereo
'Til all your speakers blow

Do you know 
What I carry when I sing,
The sacrifice I bring,
All the people I left?
I risk it all
And sometimes it's hard to believe
It's so easy not to forget and let it go
I really wanna know
When dreams get into sync
And things start to get deep
All the chances that wait
I'll take them all
Keep moving forget the ignorance

Hit 'em with the low
The front to the back rows, yeah
Tell you when to go
Get down to the floor

You really wanna know
What I carry when I sing,
The sacrifice I bring,
All the people I left?
I risk it all
And sometimes it's hard to believe
It's so easy not to forget and let it go
I really wanna know
When dreams get into sync
And things start to get deep
All the chances that wait
I'll take them all
Keep moving forget the ignorance"
"
Every time I lie is another day alone
With nobody else at home
And every time I cry is another moment into stone
Pour cement into my bones
And I stay up all night in low light
Get myself stuck in my own mind
Cause I'm so fixated in you
Thinking about all we went through
After all these years thinking
I got myself sinking down into nothing
Spend all my self-loathing, yeah
Most days, I find myself contemplating in bed
And always, I get myself trapped inside of my head
I won't say that I'm happy when I'm not, but instead
Every day, to myself, I fantasize being dead
And I wonder how much longer do I falter?
How much further? Will I ever become stronger
Like my mother and my father?
Will I ever get to conquer mental monsters that I conjured?
I will never find an answer, so I ponder and I wander.
I'm another complex runner.
I wanna cover when I suffer, but I stutter
And the thunder got me running for the covers.
I'm still the same, stuck in last summer.
Looking back,
Looping back forever.
All the confusion that goes with delusion
The feel of intrusion from lack of solution
Is nothing but stress-induced
And sometimes I slip from the saddle
Whenever these demons win the battle
Flood my head with thoughts 'til I rattle
And all of these words are making it worse
Every time I cry is another day alone
With nobody else at home
And every time I lie is another moment into stone
Pour cement into my bones
Lack of a heart, but persist to exist
Art is my biggest assist
Cannot pertain to a kiss
And I have to resist
And dismiss a flick to my wrist
Once in a while, I rely on a dial
Memories of you got me crying in denial
Life is a trial, but it's hard to compile
A list of defenses to make it worthwhile
Mental fences are chainlink to senses
Consensus commences pretenses
And this, here, now dispenses offences, yeah
All the confusion that goes with delusion
The feel of intrusion from lack of solution
Is nothing but stress-induced
Every time I cry is another day alone
With nobody else at home
And every time I lie is another moment into stone
Pour cement into my bones
(Every time I cry)
(No one else at home)
(And I feel so cold)
Every time I cry is another day alone
With nobody else at home
And every time I lie is another moment into stone
Pour cement into my bones"
"
Climb so high all the forces cannot bind me
These enforcers cannot find me
Yeah, these bullies can't define me
Fists like stone, when they push they cannot break me
Evoke fear when we use force
They use violence to keep us in course
When we lose control,
They patrol the streets to keep us in check and locked indoors.
Abuse of the badge and the point of a gun
Fear of skin color has only begun
Hide behind the blue and the threat of a stun
Beating our freedom with a dirty baton
We'll blow like dynamite
We'll engrave our names
Our stage is a fucking warzone
We're dynamite
Be engulfed in flames
Our hate is deep in our bones
We're dynamite
We're insane
The game's to reclaim our splattered blood throne
We're dynamite
Stay course from the sunlight
Pretend that we're alright
Keep telling yourself that
""They don't have to know.
Yeah, they don't have to know.""
Blow the spotlight
And hide in the moonlight
And tell yourself that
""They don't have to know.""
Yeah, keep on tellin 'em that
""We are okay.""
Okay, keep on faking fine
Until they all stay, all stay away
Til we make a new name, new name
Until we all wake into alarm"
"
Stressed out, wandering in a train station
Lights out, stuck around for a temptation
The wind's in, howling through the dark tunnels
and I can't find the muzzle for these subtle rebuttals
Assemble to crumble
My life turns to rubble
With each struggle, my life turns into a puzzle and
Obliteration is my only vindication
The medication's sensation doesn't steer assimilation
Ever since that day she left me for you,
all these issues I'm going through
have left me obsessed with you
I need to throw these problems out, so bottles up
Haunting me all the way from December
And all I gotta say is:
Listen to me boy
You better call her ""baby""
and make sure that you listen to everything she has to say
(Don't mind me, I'm just a little low)
Listen to me boy, you better treat her like she's the only one for you
I played just a little wrong
But I need to man up and let her go
I need to drown these demons bottled up
But every time, I run to cover-up
I'm not much of a fighter
I don't wanna remember December
I just wanna forget all about her
I talk too much, but quick to quit to let go
Take no for an answer to wage on
A mental vacation, or rely on sedation
laced onto a rope in a station
Confused by frustration and my inner narrations
Just know that when you go home
You'll never sleep alone
Bu the image of you two together
Will keep haunting me forever
Listen to me boy
You better call her ""baby""
and make sure that you listen to everything she has to say
(Don't mind me, I'm just a little low)
Listen to me boy, you better treat her like she's the only one for you
I played just a little wrong
But I need to man up and let her go
I don't understand
Why she had to go
I don't understand at all
I don't understand
why she had to go and leave me
Listen to me boy
You better call her ""baby""
and make sure that you listen to everything she has to say
(Don't mind me, I'm just a little low)
Listen to me boy, you better treat her like she's the only one for you
I played just a little wrong
But I need to man up and let her go"
"
I stay up later recently and question myself endlessly.
More and more I start to see the person that I’m meant to be;
My inner monster, a disappointer, claw up thoughts until I rot.
And every day’s the same.
I’m sick of me.
I’m so sick of all of you.
I’m afraid of this monster inside of me, but I like to peek in so curiously.
Drags me inside down to my knees.
It eats me up like a cannibal, so I resort to an Adderall.
Just 1 pill to chill and 5 pills to kill.
Shot of NyQuil so I can sit still.
Why’d you treat me like an animal?
Toss me to the side like I’m expendable?
Light up my fuse, I’m so flammable.
Back up before I break your mandible.
Why’re you even mad? It’s just the old shit.
You treat it like you never even saw it.
Back up or fight.
I’m never seeing the light.
I am the scene of the crime,
cause people never want to listen to my...
Voices and emotions swallow me whole into these oceans.
Who am I? Who am I? Who am I?
Endless shots of Hennessy spiraling down into the end of me.
Who am I? Who am I? Who am I?
Listen! No, you don’t listen!
You back me up all the way to the kitchen!
Swallow my pills, so I can silence the voice.
I’m banging my head just to beat and drown out the noise.
Thin out the blood in my flow, so I can go sleep and pass out on the floor.
But you just don’t ever listen.
Fuck all you heathens.
Pass over me while I’m bleeding.
Waiting for that little halo.
Not even a little “hello”?
Tired of all the hell no’s.
All I want is to be seen.
Find out answers to life’s meaning, yeah.
Why’d you treat me like an animal?
Toss me to the side like I’m expendable?
Light up my fuse, I’m so flammable.
Back up before I break your mandible.
Why’re you even mad? It’s just the old shit.
You treat it like you never even saw it.
Back up or fight.
I’m never seeing the light.
I am the scene of the crime,
cause people never want to listen to my...
Voices and emotions swallow me whole into these oceans.
Who am I? Who am I? Who am I?
Endless shots of Hennessy spiraling down into the end of me.
Who am I? Who am I? Who am I?"
"

(Part I)
Remember all the lives you've abandoned and burned
Yeah, we did that together
Waste away every day now, yeah
Let it burn in fire
All the sins you hide from me
I've seen it all now thoroughly
Everyone can see you shut down for weeks, yeah
(What do you have to say?)
My mind is a turnstile
Spits lethal projectiles
Head working in freestyle
Can't help that I'm hostile
My profile is senile
My heart into exile
Compile all the thoughts into ammo I be making is worthwhile
Push down at the roots, until I shoot
Alibi is all I need
So I move triggers to suit,
But I dispute advice
I pollute all my mind
I repute
I'm burning on, I'm the paragon
I'm burning on, I'm the paragon
(Part II)
Is this what I have become?
A ghost embracing this gun?
And now the mirror me keeps on mocking me
Tearing down my sanity
Reality is hurting me
And all I see is fake to me
Trigger to decide
What happens to my life
I'm praying to the sky
No, I'm not, I'm not the man inside
Strong enough, I put it all behind me
I throw it all, blow it all to the floor
All the pain I hide I inside of me
Close my eyes and cry so I can breathe
Throw it all, blow it all to the floor
There's nowhere else to run
I'm holding onto no one
(Say it one more, baby)
There's nowhere else to run
I'm holding onto no one, no"
"

God, are you listening?
Can you hear me weeping?
All I'm asking for is just one thing:
Erase all the shit inside of me

Dear who's ever hearing this,
Sorry that you got stuck with this
I don't know why I'm even like this
I just know I'm not fine with this

Won't you sit and hear me vent?
Cause I got shit deep inside my head
I said shit that I never meant
I regret all the shit I sent

I am always late on rent
And now my car just got a dent
That I don't know how I can mend
Cause all my money has been spent

And I can barely afford to live inside this dorm
I'm so outside the norm
I question why I was even born

God, are you listening?
Can you hear me weeping?
All I'm asking for is just one thing:
Erase all the shit inside of me
God are you listening? Can you hear me weeping?
All I'm asking for is just one thing:
Forgive all the sins inside of me

Every night I stay up
If I sleep, dreams make me wake up
Dreams of me messing up
Reminds me that I should be gone
Every day, it's escalating
And my brain starts pulsating
What's the meaning of all of this?
This large abyss, a mental itch
I start to inch toward my wrist
My bucket list thrown off a bridge
Lost in the mist
I am not missed
Nobody wants me
Fated to be lonely
I am so sorry
For my aggravated tone
And the endless calls from my cellphone

Tonight is the night I decide
The night that I might end my life
Invisible eyes immortalize all of my lies into the sky and
I long for a meaning
Into my own life, I know I'm repeating
But now, I am bleeding and losing my breathing
I think I am dying

God, are you listening?
Can you hear me weeping?
All I'm asking for is just one thing:
Erase all the shit inside of me
God are you listening? Can you hear me weeping?
All I'm asking for is just one thing:
Forgive all the sins inside of me"
"
“He doesn’t want to talk to me.
He doesn’t even look at me.
So I’m leavin’, leavin’, yeah.”
 
That’s what you always say to me.
You cry over the phone with me
Saying, “what am I supposed to do?”
 
“He did it again yesterday.
I’ll probably call it off today.
Yeah, I’m leavin’, leavin’, yeah.”
 
You hide under the shade today
Catch a glimpse of the bruise down on your knee
Behind the lens, a stream of teardrops
 
Back both of us were kids
You would cry all through the night
Pull you closer by the shoulder
‘til all your tears were dry
And I’d hope for a better, sweeter love
 
*For you, baby
Just know that I’ll be strong for you
I stay up lately
Just wondering what I’m supposed to do
With how I feel
I bury them inside
 
“He doesn’t want to talk to me.
He doesn’t even look at me.
So I’m leavin’, leavin’, yeah.”
Yeah, I just wish that I had enough strength inside
To pull you away to protect you from him, too
 
Every night I dream and, yeah, all I ever think of is only you
All the pain endured, I want to carry them for you, too
 
When I wake and open both my eyes
To the fact that you’re gone
I’ll be wondering
What am I supposed to,
What am I supposed to do?
(I’ll do what I have to)
 
*For you, baby
Just know that I’ll be strong for you
I stay up lately
I’m beating myself at night
Just wondering what I’m supposed to do
With how I feel
I bury them inside
 
Every time I dream I wake up
When I want to dream, I wake up from everything
‘til I find a way
I’ll make sure of me to stay
With how I feel inside"
"
Drank, so I can’t see my own face
Least, I see no consequences, no fakes
I don’t even know what I’m feeling, no
Give no fucks, I’m shouting, yelling “no fakes”
I don’t mind, I don’t mind, I am mine
Life decline, I always am adamant
Out of line, I confine, draw the line 
Undermine serpentine fingerprints
Salt stains litter the glass, trickling down all the windows 
I don’t know, but I know I can draw ornaments from my own sanity fragments
Sinking low to the floor
Ripping petals off a rose
Blood dribbling down from my nose
Voices inside of my head, they won’t let me go to bed
Sanity thin as a thread, my head full of lead
Why the fuck do my eyes see red?
Drank, so I can’t see my own face
Least, I see no consequences, no fakes
I don’t even know what I’m feeling, no
Give no fucks, I’m shouting, yelling “no fakes”
Enemies inside of me found within my inner vicinity
Would you give me lobotomy for the sake of the end of me?
Life is a cinema dilemma systema to the mother fucking 3rd degree
Anxiety got me seeing all these ghosts get me til I begin to coast
Bring me down when I’m most like to close all the way down
There’s no other way around to avoid another breakdown
Just another countdown
Gonna turn slowly into a beast
Have myself another feast til I’m drunk and down to my knees
I am getting tired of all this bullshit
I just wanna do what I please
This is the end of my time, end of my prime
Fight til they ring out the chime
Bite til they fade out the light, call in the night
Don’t wanna lose what is right
Drank, so I can’t see my own face
Least, I see no consequences, no fakes
I don’t even know what I’m feeling, no
Give no fucks, I’m shouting, yelling “no fakes”
Yeah, I always thought that my life would come bite me,
But I never thought I would be found so soon
If God does exist, I would be dismissed and
Sentenced to never again see the moon
I would burn forever in fire
Amidst all the sinners on pyres
For all that I’ve done in my life, 
I’d become a lesson in God’s empire
This is what I’ll get from the priest once I’m deceased
A breath of fresh air will release
But I never thought this would end oh so soon
(And I repeat again, again)
Drank, so I can’t see my own face
Least, I see no consequences, no fakes
I don’t even know what I’m feeling, no
Give no fucks, I’m shouting, yelling “no fakes”
Drank, so I can’t see my own face
Least, I see no consequences, no fakes
(Don’t even know, I’m yelling “no fakes”)
Drank, so I can’t see my own face
Least, I see no consequences, no fakes
(Don’t even know, I’m yelling “no fakes”)"
"

Just watch your step, you’ll slip and fall
Can barely see, but it’s not enough, no
Even in pain, you can’t let go
Just stand up, breath in-out, just hold on
Through and through, we’ll realize what’s burning in our eyes 
Let the fire burn (let the fire burn)
We live and learn (Don’t let them with a takedown)
Stuck in life
I ask me, “why am I right?”
I can’t deny the need to climb and make it mine
Ignore the pain, I
Before I lay down 
Against the pour down
I must control how my life will turn out 
So I can break out amidst the fall out
Deter the breakdown
I’m just another lost soul
A black crow in the white snow
I believe, I dream
I can feel the sparks beneath my feet
You’re not slowing me down
I’m making my way up
You can catch me in a melody
(Cause I)
I believe, I dream
Even at times when my heart bleeds
So, I don’t give my heart, my heart away
Yeah, I know it’s complicated
But I am suffocating head to toe
I don’t know what I’m doing, 
But “I feel fine”
I tell myself that every time
“It’s alright if I die”
Drown out the noise I hide inside with feelings of stress
I try to fight it
Ignore the pain, I
Before I lay down 
Against the pour down
I must control how
The thought of being less
The thought of being pressed down
“I’m feeling depressed now”
Sing out “I’m just another lost soul,
A black crow in the white snow”
Here I am to sing it loud again
I believe, I dream
You can feel the sparks beneath my feet
You’re not slowing me down
I’m making my way up
You can catch me in a melody
(Cause I)
I believe, I dream
Even at times when my heart bleeds
So, I don’t give my heart, my heart away
I can’t bleed anymore (anymore)
I’m losing against my own war
Inside my head, I say things I dread (I dread)
Doubts inside again
I often drown myself with medicine
A disease I need to release
I dream, I dream
I believe, I dream
You can feel the sparks beneath my feet
You’re not slowing me down
I’m making my way up
You can catch me in a melody
(Cause I)
I believe, I dream
Even at times when my heart bleeds
So, I don’t give my heart, my heart away
(my heart away)
You’re not slowing me down
I’m making my way up
You can catch me in a melody
I believe, I dream
Even at times when my heart bleeds
So, I don’t give my heart, my heart
My heart"
"

I wake up alone in bed
A message from you, instead
I’m tired of this distance
When we’re sharing the same rent
I stay up in thought of you
Tired of being see-through
Don’t throw me aside
Inside I lie to myself “we’re fine”

Can you give me a reason
Why I shouldn’t just leave on the weekend?
Iris set to home
But I gotta get back on my own
Make me cry

Don’t leave me all alone
You said, “I never meant to hurt you” once more
But I heard that before
I’m leaving it all alone
Just say “I never loved you”
I’m on my own

I open my mouth and I breathe
But words just won’t come and I freeze
And I’m down on my knees
I’m counting to three, yeah
I’m feeling my pride leave, yeah
And as I kept my eyes low
My blood started to sizzle
My inner me got out to see
This act thrown out the window
“Feel sorry for me” is out the door
I can finally be

“Now you do what I say”
Now this is my stage
And watch me dance across the floor
Swinging a steel blade (telling me lies)
Guess this is how it ends
This is how life bends

Don’t leave me all alone
You said, “I never meant to hurt you” once more
But I heard that before
I’m leaving it all alone
Just say “I never loved you”
I’m on my own

My arms can’t hold
(watching you, watching you)
I just can’t watch you right now
(Watch you go, watch you go)

Before you say goodbye
Look me in my eyes
And watch me burn

(Don’t leave me all alone)
Why don’t take my heart and just break
Take it all away
Yet I find myself say

Don’t leave me all alone
You said, “I never meant to hurt you” once more
But I heard that before
I’m leaving it all alone
Just say “I never loved you”
I’m on my own

Don’t leave me all alone
Can you hear me?
(But I heard that before)
I’m leaving it all alone
Just say “I never loved you”
I’m on my own"
"
I’m melting into ashes
(Stay by my side, stay by my side)
Heat got into my own head
(Stay by my side)
Yeah, I’m burning, I’m burning

Skin like fire
Warm inside
Twist like wires
(Stay by my side, stay by my side)
Felt so high, yeah
Before goodbyes
(These moments) burn in the sun
Yeah, I’ll never forget

Yeah, I’ll never forget

Is this what you mean by “reminiscing”?
Cause I remember it another way
Can’t you see you and me were never meant to be
(We’re always meant to be)
(I remember it like it was just yesterday,
Everything in my mind replays)
Just like with me, but bad memories
Drown me with the sea, oh
(Everytime I try to go back,
Incase of panic attacks, I drink a six pack)
But we won’t last
It’s the end of the run
We burned in the sun
Yeah, I’ll never forget

Yeah, I’ll never forget
Yeah, I’ll never forget
(End of the run
Burn in the sun, yeah
End of the run)
Yeah, I’ll never forget

Skin like fire
Warm inside
Twist like wires
(Stay by my side, stay by my side)
Felt so high, yeah
Before goodbyes
(These moments) burn in the sun
Burn in the sun
Skin like fire
Warm inside
Twist like wires
(Stay by my side, stay by my side)
Felt so high, yeah
Before goodbyes
(These moments) burn in the sun
Yeah, I’ll never forget

Yeah, I’ll never forget

(The sun will set, it’s dark again
And oh, let’s start again slow)
(End of the run, burn in the sun, end of the run)

Yeah, I’ll never forget

(The sun will set, it’s dark again
And oh, let’s start again slow)
(End of the run, burn in the sun, end of the run)
Yeah, I’ll never forget
I’m melting into ashes
Heat got into my own head
Yeah, I’m burning, I’m burning"
"
And it begins
The sudden urge to fly
I’m checking my list
Oh heavens, come help me
I can’t help it, I savor it
I’m addicted to the taste of blood, yeah

Lock up the doors right
There’s no escape tonight
Cover their eyes
Set them in fire
Nothing can stop us now, yeah
Dead or alive, we’re loud, yeah
Let it all out
(Let it all out in sight)

Yeah we dance around the moon
Under raining blood
Let the velvet clothe the ground
Under broken hearts
Break the seams off like the yellow split navy skies
Shining through, shining through
Past the wailing cries
Yeah we swerve on through the night
Over Half Moon Bay
Falling to the sand over where our bodies will lay
As we float on gently down with the raining glass
Smiling through, smiling through our eyes

Stop, can you hear me crying out loud?
Yeah, I’m crawling out now yeah 
Oh bury me six feet deep
So you can fall asleep
But that doesn’t work on me, no

Open your eyes, open your eyes
Know that I’m back, yeah
You can’t escape this room
You can’t escape this room

This is the end, this is the end for you
Down with the system, drown with your mister

Yeah we dance around the moon
Under raining blood
Let the velvet clothe the ground
Under broken hearts
Break the seams off like the yellow split navy skies
Shining through, shining through
Past the wailing cries
Yeah we swerve on through the night
Over Half Moon Bay
Falling to the sand over where our bodies will lay
As we float on gently down with the raining glass
Smiling through, smiling through our eyes

And as we fall, pray “I’m sorry” 

Just know that you’ll never get to go home to your mother and your father
But it’s better cause I’ll take you to our Father
It’s like a one way trip and it’s for a good cause
I just let a knife slip and red confetti spews off
Sympathy is what I lack
Just like to attack from the back
I’m like a heart attack, that's a fact yeah 
I’m the Don 
Night til dawn
Easy on
Babble on
You’ll be gone

Lock up the doors right
There’s no escape tonight
Cover their eyes
Set them in fire
Nothing can stop us now, yeah
Dead or alive, we’re loud, yeah
Let it all out
(Let it all out in sight)

Yeah we dance around the moon
Under raining blood
Let the velvet clothe the ground
Under broken hearts
Break the seams off like the yellow split navy skies
Shining through, shining through
Past the wailing cries
Yeah we swerve on through the night
Over Half Moon Bay
Falling to the sand over where our bodies will lay
As we float on gently down with the raining glass
Smiling through, smiling through our eyes"
"
Here it is again
Same routine, the same old friends
Dress like everyone, the same old things
Go to work and drive the same old lane
(Turn it up)
Swallow all happy pills just like everyone else
Follow orders on screen and take the paycheck
Leave at 5, yeah, all the time
Go to sleep around 9
And say goodnight to LIFE, yeah,
Til the sunrise
I don’t know why oh why
When I start to feel like this
I’m forced to sing this:
(And it goes like this)
All of us can’t see our future clearly
All of us live life mindlessly, yeah
Just live our life til we die
Don’t even know what we like
Go under, go under, go under
It keeps repeating, repeating
Til we lose track of the days in the calendar
I follow orders, like others, so aimlessly
But I wanna break cause I cannot take this for another night
It seems I’m going crazy, yeah
Can’t take it easy, yeah
Follow everyone’s rhythm
Stick with the same algorithm to sell ‘em, yeah
Culture full of blame for those who are not the same
(Is this what you want now?)
Longing for revolution
Don’t need a cult religion
What are we dancing for now?
Copy-paste, indulge us right now
That’s the way it goes and that’s the way it goes
(And all I gotta say is)
All of us can’t see our future clearly
All of us live life mindlessly, yeah
Just live our life til we die
Don’t even know what we like
Go under, go under, go under
They thought we wouldn’t notice this orchestrated bliss
But none of me want to be a part of this, yeah
Gotta run from it all
Lay low, gotta crawl
Forget all the words they made us call
All of us can’t see our future clearly
All of us live life mindlessly, yeah
Just living our life in fear
So we gotta go under, go under All of us can’t see our future clearly
All of us live life mindlessly, yeah
Just live our life til we die
Don’t even know what we like
Go under, go under, go underAll of us can’t see our future clearly
All of us live life mindlessly, yeah
Just live our life til we die
Don’t even know what we like
Go under, go under, go under"
I believe, I dream
I can feel the sparks beneath my feet
You’re not slowing me down
I’m making my way up
You can catch me in a melody
(Cause I)
I believe, I dream
Even at times when my heart bleeds
So, I don’t give my heart, my heart away
Yeah, I know it’s complicated
But I am suffocating head to toe
I don’t know what I’m doing, 
But “I feel fine”
I tell myself that every time
“It’s alright if I die”
Drown out the noise I hide inside with feelings of stress
I try to fight it
Ignore the pain, I
Before I lay down 
Against the pour down
I must control how
The thought of being less
The thought of being pressed down
“I’m feeling depressed now”
Sing out “I’m just another lost soul,
A black crow in the white snow”
Here I am to sing it loud again
I believe, I dream
You can feel the sparks beneath my feet
You’re not slowing me down
I’m making my way up
You can catch me in a melody
(Cause I)
I believe, I dream
Even at times when my heart bleeds
So, I don’t give my heart, my heart away
I can’t bleed anymore (anymore)
I’m losing against my own war
Inside my head, I say things I dread (I dread)
Doubts inside again
I often drown myself with medicine
A disease I need to release
I dream, I dream
I believe, I dream
You can feel the sparks beneath my feet
You’re not slowing me down
I’m making my way up
You can catch me in a melody
(Cause I)
I believe, I dream
Even at times when my heart bleeds
So, I don’t give my heart, my heart away
(my heart away)
You’re not slowing me down
I’m making my way up
You can catch me in a melody
I believe, I dream
Even at times when my heart bleeds
So, I don’t give my heart, my heart
My heart"
"

I wake up alone in bed
A message from you, instead
I’m tired of this distance
When we’re sharing the same rent
I stay up in thought of you
Tired of being see-through
Don’t throw me aside
Inside I lie to myself “we’re fine”

Can you give me a reason
Why I shouldn’t just leave on the weekend?
Iris set to home
But I gotta get back on my own
Make me cry

Don’t leave me all alone
You said, “I never meant to hurt you” once more
But I heard that before
I’m leaving it all alone
Just say “I never loved you”
I’m on my own

I open my mouth and I breathe
But words just won’t come and I freeze
And I’m down on my knees
I’m counting to three, yeah
I’m feeling my pride leave, yeah
And as I kept my eyes low
My blood started to sizzle
My inner me got out to see
This act thrown out the window
“Feel sorry for me” is out the door
I can finally be

“Now you do what I say”
Now this is my stage
And watch me dance across the floor
Swinging a steel blade (telling me lies)
Guess this is how it ends
This is how life bends

Don’t leave me all alone
You said, “I never meant to hurt you” once more
But I heard that before
I’m leaving it all alone
Just say “I never loved you”
I’m on my own

My arms can’t hold
(watching you, watching you)
I just can’t watch you right now
(Watch you go, watch you go)

Before you say goodbye
Look me in my eyes
And watch me burn

(Don’t leave me all alone)
Why don’t take my heart and just break
Take it all away
Yet I find myself say

Don’t leave me all alone
You said, “I never meant to hurt you” once more
But I heard that before
I’m leaving it all alone
Just say “I never loved you”
I’m on my own

Don’t leave me all alone
Can you hear me?
(But I heard that before)
I’m leaving it all alone
Just say “I never loved you”
I’m on my own"
"
I’m melting into ashes
(Stay by my side, stay by my side)
Heat got into my own head
(Stay by my side)
Yeah, I’m burning, I’m burning

Skin like fire
Warm inside
Twist like wires
(Stay by my side, stay by my side)
Felt so high, yeah
Before goodbyes
(These moments) burn in the sun
Yeah, I’ll never forget

Yeah, I’ll never forget

Is this what you mean by “reminiscing”?
Cause I remember it another way
Can’t you see you and me were never meant to be
(We’re always meant to be)
(I remember it like it was just yesterday,
Everything in my mind replays)
Just like with me, but bad memories
Drown me with the sea, oh
(Everytime I try to go back,
Incase of panic attacks, I drink a six pack)
But we won’t last
It’s the end of the run
We burned in the sun
Yeah, I’ll never forget

Yeah, I’ll never forget
Yeah, I’ll never forget
(End of the run
Burn in the sun, yeah
End of the run)
Yeah, I’ll never forget

Skin like fire
Warm inside
Twist like wires
(Stay by my side, stay by my side)
Felt so high, yeah
Before goodbyes
(These moments) burn in the sun
Burn in the sun
Skin like fire
Warm inside
Twist like wires
(Stay by my side, stay by my side)
Felt so high, yeah
Before goodbyes
(These moments) burn in the sun
Yeah, I’ll never forget

Yeah, I’ll never forget

(The sun will set, it’s dark again
And oh, let’s start again slow)
(End of the run, burn in the sun, end of the run)

Yeah, I’ll never forget

(The sun will set, it’s dark again
And oh, let’s start again slow)
(End of the run, burn in the sun, end of the run)
Yeah, I’ll never forget
I’m melting into ashes
Heat got into my own head
Yeah, I’m burning, I’m burning"
"
And it begins
The sudden urge to fly
I’m checking my list
Oh heavens, come help me
I can’t help it, I savor it
I’m addicted to the taste of blood, yeah

Lock up the doors right
There’s no escape tonight
Cover their eyes
Set them in fire
Nothing can stop us now, yeah
Dead or alive, we’re loud, yeah
Let it all out
(Let it all out in sight)

Yeah we dance around the moon
Under raining blood
Let the velvet clothe the ground
Under broken hearts
Break the seams off like the yellow split navy skies
Shining through, shining through
Past the wailing cries
Yeah we swerve on through the night
Over Half Moon Bay
Falling to the sand over where our bodies will lay
As we float on gently down with the raining glass
Smiling through, smiling through our eyes

Stop, can you hear me crying out loud?
Yeah, I’m crawling out now yeah 
Oh bury me six feet deep
So you can fall asleep
But that doesn’t work on me, no

Open your eyes, open your eyes
Know that I’m back, yeah
You can’t escape this room
You can’t escape this room

This is the end, this is the end for you
Down with the system, drown with your mister

Yeah we dance around the moon
Under raining blood
Let the velvet clothe the ground
Under broken hearts
Break the seams off like the yellow split navy skies
Shining through, shining through
Past the wailing cries
Yeah we swerve on through the night
Over Half Moon Bay
Falling to the sand over where our bodies will lay
As we float on gently down with the raining glass
Smiling through, smiling through our eyes

And as we fall, pray “I’m sorry” 

Just know that you’ll never get to go home to your mother and your father
But it’s better cause I’ll take you to our Father
It’s like a one way trip and it’s for a good cause
I just let a knife slip and red confetti spews off
Sympathy is what I lack
Just like to attack from the back
I’m like a heart attack, that's a fact yeah 
I’m the Don 
Night til dawn
Easy on
Babble on
You’ll be gone

Lock up the doors right
There’s no escape tonight
Cover their eyes
Set them in fire
Nothing can stop us now, yeah
Dead or alive, we’re loud, yeah
Let it all out
(Let it all out in sight)

Yeah we dance around the moon
Under raining blood
Let the velvet clothe the ground
Under broken hearts
Break the seams off like the yellow split navy skies
Shining through, shining through
Past the wailing cries
Yeah we swerve on through the night
Over Half Moon Bay
Falling to the sand over where our bodies will lay
As we float on gently down with the raining glass
Smiling through, smiling through our eyes"
"
Here it is again
Same routine, the same old friends
Dress like everyone, the same old things
Go to work and drive the same old lane
(Turn it up)
Swallow all happy pills just like everyone else
Follow orders on screen and take the paycheck
Leave at 5, yeah, all the time
Go to sleep around 9
And say goodnight to LIFE, yeah,
Til the sunrise
I don’t know why oh why
When I start to feel like this
I’m forced to sing this:
(And it goes like this)
All of us can’t see our future clearly
All of us live life mindlessly, yeah
Just live our life til we die
Don’t even know what we like
Go under, go under, go under
It keeps repeating, repeating
Til we lose track of the days in the calendar
I follow orders, like others, so aimlessly
But I wanna break cause I cannot take this for another night
It seems I’m going crazy, yeah
Can’t take it easy, yeah
Follow everyone’s rhythm
Stick with the same algorithm to sell ‘em, yeah
Culture full of blame for those who are not the same
(Is this what you want now?)
Longing for revolution
Don’t need a cult religion
What are we dancing for now?
Copy-paste, indulge us right now
That’s the way it goes and that’s the way it goes
(And all I gotta say is)
All of us can’t see our future clearly
All of us live life mindlessly, yeah
Just live our life til we die
Don’t even know what we like
Go under, go under, go under
They thought we wouldn’t notice this orchestrated bliss
But none of me want to be a part of this, yeah
Gotta run from it all
Lay low, gotta crawl
Forget all the words they made us call
All of us can’t see our future clearly
All of us live life mindlessly, yeah
Just living our life in fear
So we gotta go under, go under All of us can’t see our future clearly
All of us live life mindlessly, yeah
Just live our life til we die
Don’t even know what we like
Go under, go under, go underAll of us can’t see our future clearly
All of us live life mindlessly, yeah
Just live our life til we die
Don’t even know what we like
Go under, go under, go under"

Everyone is best artists!
It is sooo excited for me!!
I hope you all do great job!!!

I really like Self-Portrait. And this event will feature their vocalist, so I can't hide my excitement! That was great news for me and made me happy. I don't really like summer, but I'm really looking forward to this year's event. Thank you Mudia. Their husky and beautiful singing voices sometimes scream powerfully and sometimes subtly soothe. I know they are difficult techniques. But he does it well. It builds a story over the song and creates a margin for the viewer to substitute emotions. They are essential to music. Do you agree?
In particular, I like one of their works, "If you can meet at the live house". It goes in 6-8 time signatures at medium tempo. It's the same beat all the way through, but that's why you can clearly hear the ups and downs of his amazing voice. I listened to that song many times. And I am impressed again and again. even now.
I don't know any singer-songwriters other than him, but I'm sure they'll be on the same stage as him, so I think they'll be great too. It excites me so much. I'm sure they will create a very happy time tonight. I feel honored to be able to spend time together as that audience.
May they have many joys! It may actually be that I have already been given to them.
thank you!

The medicine is setting in
My lungs gasp for oxygen
And blood fills my throat
I drown 'til I float
My sunken heart-shaped by erosion

I can't stop myself
I find that I run for the window, the window
I can't trust myself
Voices start to echo ""you reap what you sow""
I can't save myself
I'm stuck in life, between the surfaces and the burrows
Bury my deep with my sorrows
All I'm looking for now deep inside is another day

I'm bleeding and pleading for a silver lining
I'm sitting and waiting for some light to shine in
It's harder to breathe tonight
So I toughen up my skin so I can fight

I can't stop myself
I find that I run for the window, the window
I can't trust myself
Voices start to echo ""you reap what you sow""
I can't save myself
I'm stuck in life, between the surfaces and the burrows
Buried with my soul, bury my soul
I'll carry myself

Isn't it amazing how I spent my life praying
Yet I'm deprived, all empty inside, and I'm petrified
All my life I searched for
Answers and for a mentor
And books hidden within broken, opened golden sunken drawers
My eyes open but I can't see
What life lies just ahead of me
Oh God, all I ask for now is that you don't
let me sleep again alone with my bed
Don't ask me, cause I can't follow through with God's plans
I ain't good enough for God's plans

(Don't) let me sleep again in my bed
Don't ask me, cause I can't follow through with God's plans
I ain't good enough for God's plans
I ain't good enough
I ain't good enough for God's plans
I ain't good enough
(Hands crossed, open one eye)
(Hands crossed, open one)
The medicine is setting in
My lungs gasp for oxygen
And blood fills my throat
I drown 'til I float
My sunken heart-shaped by erosion

I can't stop myself
I find that I run for the window, the window
I can't trust myself
Voices start to echo ""you reap what you sow""
I can't save myself
I'm stuck in life, between the surfaces and the burrows
Bury my deep with my sorrows
All I'm looking for now deep inside is another day

I'm bleeding and pleading for a silver lining
I'm sitting and waiting for some light to shine in
It's harder to breathe tonight
So I toughen up my skin so I can fight

I can't stop myself
I find that I run for the window, the window
I can't trust myself
Voices start to echo ""you reap what you sow""
I can't save myself
I'm stuck in life, between the surfaces and the burrows
Buried with my soul, bury my soul
I'll carry myself

Isn't it amazing how I spent my life praying
Yet I'm deprived, all empty inside, and I'm petrified
All my life I searched for
Answers and for a mentor
And books hidden within broken, opened golden sunken drawers
My eyes open but I can't see
What life lies just ahead of me
Oh God, all I ask for now is that you don't
let me sleep again alone with my bed
Don't ask me, cause I can't follow through with God's plans
I ain't good enough for God's plans

(Don't) let me sleep again in my bed
Don't ask me, cause I can't follow through with God's plans
I ain't good enough for God's plans
I ain't good enough
I ain't good enough for God's plans
I ain't good enough
(Hands crossed, open one eye)
(Hands crossed, open one)"
"
I’ll walk when I need to walk
Not when you tell me to
When push comes to shove
It's not enough to stop me move
Fell down a couple times
You like to watch me lose
Like to watch me lose, yeah

Hit 'em with the low
The front to the back rows, yeah
Tell you when to go
Get down to the floor

You really wanna know
What I carry when I sing,
The sacrifice I bring,
All the people I left?
I risk it all
And sometimes it's hard to believe
It's so easy not to forget and let it go
I really wanna know
When dreams get into sync
And things start to get deep
All the chances that wait
I'll take them all
Keep moving forget the ignorance

Lights out
Get 'em begging for a replay

Now hit 'em with the low
Yeah, I'm never gonna bow down
Regardless of how much Imma fall out
Still I got doubts, but I gotta hold out
This is the life I decided to scout
And up with the breakout, yeah
All the way to the radio
Up top, non-stop on your stereo
'Til all your speakers blow

Do you know 
What I carry when I sing,
The sacrifice I bring,
All the people I left?
I risk it all
And sometimes it's hard to believe
It's so easy not to forget and let it go
I really wanna know
When dreams get into sync
And things start to get deep
All the chances that wait
I'll take them all
Keep moving forget the ignorance

Hit 'em with the low
The front to the back rows, yeah
Tell you when to go
Get down to the floor

You really wanna know
What I carry when I sing,
The sacrifice I bring,
All the people I left?
I risk it all
And sometimes it's hard to believe
It's so easy not to forget and let it go
I really wanna know
When dreams get into sync
And things start to get deep
All the chances that wait
I'll take them all
Keep moving forget the ignorance"
"
Every time I lie is another day alone
With nobody else at home
And every time I cry is another moment into stone
Pour cement into my bones
And I stay up all night in low light
Get myself stuck in my own mind
Cause I'm so fixated in you
Thinking about all we went through
After all these years thinking
I got myself sinking down into nothing
Spend all my self-loathing, yeah
Most days, I find myself contemplating in bed
And always, I get myself trapped inside of my head
I won't say that I'm happy when I'm not, but instead
Every day, to myself, I fantasize being dead
And I wonder how much longer do I falter?
How much further? Will I ever become stronger
Like my mother and my father?
Will I ever get to conquer mental monsters that I conjured?
I will never find an answer, so I ponder and I wander.
I'm another complex runner.
I wanna cover when I suffer, but I stutter
And the thunder got me running for the covers.
I'm still the same, stuck in last summer.
Looking back,
Looping back forever.
All the confusion that goes with delusion
The feel of intrusion from lack of solution
Is nothing but stress-induced
And sometimes I slip from the saddle
Whenever these demons win the battle
Flood my head with thoughts 'til I rattle
And all of these words are making it worse
Every time I cry is another day alone
With nobody else at home
And every time I lie is another moment into stone
Pour cement into my bones
Lack of a heart, but persist to exist
Art is my biggest assist
Cannot pertain to a kiss
And I have to resist
And dismiss a flick to my wrist
Once in a while, I rely on a dial
Memories of you got me crying in denial
Life is a trial, but it's hard to compile
A list of defenses to make it worthwhile
Mental fences are chainlink to senses
Consensus commences pretenses
And this, here, now dispenses offences, yeah
All the confusion that goes with delusion
The feel of intrusion from lack of solution
Is nothing but stress-induced
Every time I cry is another day alone
With nobody else at home
And every time I lie is another moment into stone
Pour cement into my bones
(Every time I cry)
(No one else at home)
(And I feel so cold)
Every time I cry is another day alone
With nobody else at home
And every time I lie is another moment into stone
Pour cement into my bones"
"
Climb so high all the forces cannot bind me
These enforcers cannot find me
Yeah, these bullies can't define me
Fists like stone, when they push they cannot break me
Evoke fear when we use force
They use violence to keep us in course
When we lose control,
They patrol the streets to keep us in check and locked indoors.
Abuse of the badge and the point of a gun
Fear of skin color has only begun
Hide behind the blue and the threat of a stun
Beating our freedom with a dirty baton
We'll blow like dynamite
We'll engrave our names
Our stage is a fucking warzone
We're dynamite
Be engulfed in flames
Our hate is deep in our bones
We're dynamite
We're insane
The game's to reclaim our splattered blood throne
We're dynamite
Stay course from the sunlight
Pretend that we're alright
Keep telling yourself that
""They don't have to know.
Yeah, they don't have to know.""
Blow the spotlight
And hide in the moonlight
And tell yourself that
""They don't have to know.""
Yeah, keep on tellin 'em that
""We are okay.""
Okay, keep on faking fine
Until they all stay, all stay away
Til we make a new name, new name
Until we all wake into alarm"
"
Stressed out, wandering in a train station
Lights out, stuck around for a temptation
The wind's in, howling through the dark tunnels
and I can't find the muzzle for these subtle rebuttals
Assemble to crumble
My life turns to rubble
With each struggle, my life turns into a puzzle and
Obliteration is my only vindication
The medication's sensation doesn't steer assimilation
Ever since that day she left me for you,
all these issues I'm going through
have left me obsessed with you
I need to throw these problems out, so bottles up
Haunting me all the way from December
And all I gotta say is:
Listen to me boy
You better call her ""baby""
and make sure that you listen to everything she has to say
(Don't mind me, I'm just a little low)
Listen to me boy, you better treat her like she's the only one for you
I played just a little wrong
But I need to man up and let her go
I need to drown these demons bottled up
But every time, I run to cover-up
I'm not much of a fighter
I don't wanna remember December
I just wanna forget all about her
I talk too much, but quick to quit to let go
Take no for an answer to wage on
A mental vacation, or rely on sedation
laced onto a rope in a station
Confused by frustration and my inner narrations
Just know that when you go home
You'll never sleep alone
Bu the image of you two together
Will keep haunting me forever
Listen to me boy
You better call her ""baby""
and make sure that you listen to everything she has to say
(Don't mind me, I'm just a little low)
Listen to me boy, you better treat her like she's the only one for you
I played just a little wrong
But I need to man up and let her go
I don't understand
Why she had to go
I don't understand at all
I don't understand
why she had to go and leave me
Listen to me boy
You better call her ""baby""
and make sure that you listen to everything she has to say
(Don't mind me, I'm just a little low)
Listen to me boy, you better treat her like she's the only one for you
I played just a little wrong
But I need to man up and let her go"
"
I stay up later recently and question myself endlessly.
More and more I start to see the person that I’m meant to be;
My inner monster, a disappointer, claw up thoughts until I rot.
And every day’s the same.
I’m sick of me.
I’m so sick of all of you.
I’m afraid of this monster inside of me, but I like to peek in so curiously.
Drags me inside down to my knees.
It eats me up like a cannibal, so I resort to an Adderall.
Just 1 pill to chill and 5 pills to kill.
Shot of NyQuil so I can sit still.
Why’d you treat me like an animal?
Toss me to the side like I’m expendable?
Light up my fuse, I’m so flammable.
Back up before I break your mandible.
Why’re you even mad? It’s just the old shit.
You treat it like you never even saw it.
Back up or fight.
I’m never seeing the light.
I am the scene of the crime,
cause people never want to listen to my...
Voices and emotions swallow me whole into these oceans.
Who am I? Who am I? Who am I?
Endless shots of Hennessy spiraling down into the end of me.
Who am I? Who am I? Who am I?
Listen! No, you don’t listen!
You back me up all the way to the kitchen!
Swallow my pills, so I can silence the voice.
I’m banging my head just to beat and drown out the noise.
Thin out the blood in my flow, so I can go sleep and pass out on the floor.
But you just don’t ever listen.
Fuck all you heathens.
Pass over me while I’m bleeding.
Waiting for that little halo.
Not even a little “hello”?
Tired of all the hell no’s.
All I want is to be seen.
Find out answers to life’s meaning, yeah.
Why’d you treat me like an animal?
Toss me to the side like I’m expendable?
Light up my fuse, I’m so flammable.
Back up before I break your mandible.
Why’re you even mad? It’s just the old shit.
You treat it like you never even saw it.
Back up or fight.
I’m never seeing the light.
I am the scene of the crime,
cause people never want to listen to my...
Voices and emotions swallow me whole into these oceans.
Who am I? Who am I? Who am I?
Endless shots of Hennessy spiraling down into the end of me.
Who am I? Who am I? Who am I?"
"

(Part I)
Remember all the lives you've abandoned and burned
Yeah, we did that together
Waste away every day now, yeah
Let it burn in fire
All the sins you hide from me
I've seen it all now thoroughly
Everyone can see you shut down for weeks, yeah
(What do you have to say?)
My mind is a turnstile
Spits lethal projectiles
Head working in freestyle
Can't help that I'm hostile
My profile is senile
My heart into exile
Compile all the thoughts into ammo I be making is worthwhile
Push down at the roots, until I shoot
Alibi is all I need
So I move triggers to suit,
But I dispute advice
I pollute all my mind
I repute
I'm burning on, I'm the paragon
I'm burning on, I'm the paragon
(Part II)
Is this what I have become?
A ghost embracing this gun?
And now the mirror me keeps on mocking me
Tearing down my sanity
Reality is hurting me
And all I see is fake to me
Trigger to decide
What happens to my life
I'm praying to the sky
No, I'm not, I'm not the man inside
Strong enough, I put it all behind me
I throw it all, blow it all to the floor
All the pain I hide I inside of me
Close my eyes and cry so I can breathe
Throw it all, blow it all to the floor
There's nowhere else to run
I'm holding onto no one
(Say it one more, baby)
There's nowhere else to run
I'm holding onto no one, no"
"

God, are you listening?
Can you hear me weeping?
All I'm asking for is just one thing:
Erase all the shit inside of me

Dear who's ever hearing this,
Sorry that you got stuck with this
I don't know why I'm even like this
I just know I'm not fine with this

Won't you sit and hear me vent?
Cause I got shit deep inside my head
I said shit that I never meant
I regret all the shit I sent

I am always late on rent
And now my car just got a dent
That I don't know how I can mend
Cause all my money has been spent

And I can barely afford to live inside this dorm
I'm so outside the norm
I question why I was even born

God, are you listening?
Can you hear me weeping?
All I'm asking for is just one thing:
Erase all the shit inside of me
God are you listening? Can you hear me weeping?
All I'm asking for is just one thing:
Forgive all the sins inside of me

Every night I stay up
If I sleep, dreams make me wake up
Dreams of me messing up
Reminds me that I should be gone
Every day, it's escalating
And my brain starts pulsating
What's the meaning of all of this?
This large abyss, a mental itch
I start to inch toward my wrist
My bucket list thrown off a bridge
Lost in the mist
I am not missed
Nobody wants me
Fated to be lonely
I am so sorry
For my aggravated tone
And the endless calls from my cellphone

Tonight is the night I decide
The night that I might end my life
Invisible eyes immortalize all of my lies into the sky and
I long for a meaning
Into my own life, I know I'm repeating
But now, I am bleeding and losing my breathing
I think I am dying

God, are you listening?
Can you hear me weeping?
All I'm asking for is just one thing:
Erase all the shit inside of me
God are you listening? Can you hear me weeping?
All I'm asking for is just one thing:
Forgive all the sins inside of me"
"
“He doesn’t want to talk to me.
He doesn’t even look at me.
So I’m leavin’, leavin’, yeah.”
 
That’s what you always say to me.
You cry over the phone with me
Saying, “what am I supposed to do?”
 
“He did it again yesterday.
I’ll probably call it off today.
Yeah, I’m leavin’, leavin’, yeah.”
 
You hide under the shade today
Catch a glimpse of the bruise down on your knee
Behind the lens, a stream of teardrops
 
Back both of us were kids
You would cry all through the night
Pull you closer by the shoulder
‘til all your tears were dry
And I’d hope for a better, sweeter love
 
*For you, baby
Just know that I’ll be strong for you
I stay up lately
Just wondering what I’m supposed to do
With how I feel
I bury them inside
 
“He doesn’t want to talk to me.
He doesn’t even look at me.
So I’m leavin’, leavin’, yeah.”
Yeah, I just wish that I had enough strength inside
To pull you away to protect you from him, too
 
Every night I dream and, yeah, all I ever think of is only you
All the pain endured, I want to carry them for you, too
 
When I wake and open both my eyes
To the fact that you’re gone
I’ll be wondering
What am I supposed to,
What am I supposed to do?
(I’ll do what I have to)
 
*For you, baby
Just know that I’ll be strong for you
I stay up lately
I’m beating myself at night
Just wondering what I’m supposed to do
With how I feel
I bury them inside
 
Every time I dream I wake up
When I want to dream, I wake up from everything
‘til I find a way
I’ll make sure of me to stay
With how I feel inside"
"
Drank, so I can’t see my own face
Least, I see no consequences, no fakes
I don’t even know what I’m feeling, no
Give no fucks, I’m shouting, yelling “no fakes”
I don’t mind, I don’t mind, I am mine
Life decline, I always am adamant
Out of line, I confine, draw the line 
Undermine serpentine fingerprints
Salt stains litter the glass, trickling down all the windows 
I don’t know, but I know I can draw ornaments from my own sanity fragments
Sinking low to the floor
Ripping petals off a rose
Blood dribbling down from my nose
Voices inside of my head, they won’t let me go to bed
Sanity thin as a thread, my head full of lead
Why the fuck do my eyes see red?
Drank, so I can’t see my own face
Least, I see no consequences, no fakes
I don’t even know what I’m feeling, no
Give no fucks, I’m shouting, yelling “no fakes”
Enemies inside of me found within my inner vicinity
Would you give me lobotomy for the sake of the end of me?
Life is a cinema dilemma systema to the mother fucking 3rd degree
Anxiety got me seeing all these ghosts get me til I begin to coast
Bring me down when I’m most like to close all the way down
There’s no other way around to avoid another breakdown
Just another countdown
Gonna turn slowly into a beast
Have myself another feast til I’m drunk and down to my knees
I am getting tired of all this bullshit
I just wanna do what I please
This is the end of my time, end of my prime
Fight til they ring out the chime
Bite til they fade out the light, call in the night
Don’t wanna lose what is right
Drank, so I can’t see my own face
Least, I see no consequences, no fakes
I don’t even know what I’m feeling, no
Give no fucks, I’m shouting, yelling “no fakes”
Yeah, I always thought that my life would come bite me,
But I never thought I would be found so soon
If God does exist, I would be dismissed and
Sentenced to never again see the moon
I would burn forever in fire
Amidst all the sinners on pyres
For all that I’ve done in my life, 
I’d become a lesson in God’s empire
This is what I’ll get from the priest once I’m deceased
A breath of fresh air will release
But I never thought this would end oh so soon
(And I repeat again, again)
Drank, so I can’t see my own face
Least, I see no consequences, no fakes
I don’t even know what I’m feeling, no
Give no fucks, I’m shouting, yelling “no fakes”
Drank, so I can’t see my own face
Least, I see no consequences, no fakes
(Don’t even know, I’m yelling “no fakes”)
Drank, so I can’t see my own face
Least, I see no consequences, no fakes
(Don’t even know, I’m yelling “no fakes”)"
"

Just watch your step, you’ll slip and fall
Can barely see, but it’s not enough, no
Even in pain, you can’t let go
Just stand up, breath in-out, just hold on
Through and through, we’ll realize what’s burning in our eyes 
Let the fire burn (let the fire burn)
We live and learn (Don’t let them with a takedown)
Stuck in life
I ask me, “why am I right?”
I can’t deny the need to climb and make it mine
Ignore the pain, I
Before I lay down 
Against the pour down
I must control how my life will turn out 
So I can break out amidst the fall out
Deter the breakdown
I’m just another lost soul
A black crow in the white snow
I believe, I dream
I can feel the sparks beneath my feet
You’re not slowing me down
I’m making my way up
You can catch me in a melody
(Cause I)
I believe, I dream
Even at times when my heart bleeds
So, I don’t give my heart, my heart away
Yeah, I know it’s complicated
But I am suffocating head to toe
I don’t know what I’m doing, 
But “I feel fine”
I tell myself that every time
“It’s alright if I die”
Drown out the noise I hide inside with feelings of stress
I try to fight it
Ignore the pain, I
Before I lay down 
Against the pour down
I must control how
The thought of being less
The thought of being pressed down
“I’m feeling depressed now”
Sing out “I’m just another lost soul,
A black crow in the white snow”
Here I am to sing it loud again
I believe, I dream
You can feel the sparks beneath my feet
You’re not slowing me down
I’m making my way up
You can catch me in a melody
(Cause I)
I believe, I dream
Even at times when my heart bleeds
So, I don’t give my heart, my heart away
I can’t bleed anymore (anymore)
I’m losing against my own war
Inside my head, I say things I dread (I dread)
Doubts inside again
I often drown myself with medicine
A disease I need to release
I dream, I dream
I believe, I dream
You can feel the sparks beneath my feet
You’re not slowing me down
I’m making my way up
You can catch me in a melody
(Cause I)
I believe, I dream
Even at times when my heart bleeds
So, I don’t give my heart, my heart away
(my heart away)
You’re not slowing me down
I’m making my way up
You can catch me in a melody
I believe, I dream
Even at times when my heart bleeds
So, I don’t give my heart, my heart
My heart"
"

I wake up alone in bed
A message from you, instead
I’m tired of this distance
When we’re sharing the same rent
I stay up in thought of you
Tired of being see-through
Don’t throw me aside
Inside I lie to myself “we’re fine”

Can you give me a reason
Why I shouldn’t just leave on the weekend?
Iris set to home
But I gotta get back on my own
Make me cry

Don’t leave me all alone
You said, “I never meant to hurt you” once more
But I heard that before
I’m leaving it all alone
Just say “I never loved you”
I’m on my own

I open my mouth and I breathe
But words just won’t come and I freeze
And I’m down on my knees
I’m counting to three, yeah
I’m feeling my pride leave, yeah
And as I kept my eyes low
My blood started to sizzle
My inner me got out to see
This act thrown out the window
“Feel sorry for me” is out the door
I can finally be

“Now you do what I say”
Now this is my stage
And watch me dance across the floor
Swinging a steel blade (telling me lies)
Guess this is how it ends
This is how life bends

Don’t leave me all alone
You said, “I never meant to hurt you” once more
But I heard that before
I’m leaving it all alone
Just say “I never loved you”
I’m on my own

My arms can’t hold
(watching you, watching you)
I just can’t watch you right now
(Watch you go, watch you go)

Before you say goodbye
Look me in my eyes
And watch me burn

(Don’t leave me all alone)
Why don’t take my heart and just break
Take it all away
Yet I find myself say

Don’t leave me all alone
You said, “I never meant to hurt you” once more
But I heard that before
I’m leaving it all alone
Just say “I never loved you”
I’m on my own

Don’t leave me all alone
Can you hear me?
(But I heard that before)
I’m leaving it all alone
Just say “I never loved you”
I’m on my own"
"
I’m melting into ashes
(Stay by my side, stay by my side)
Heat got into my own head
(Stay by my side)
Yeah, I’m burning, I’m burning

Skin like fire
Warm inside
Twist like wires
(Stay by my side, stay by my side)
Felt so high, yeah
Before goodbyes
(These moments) burn in the sun
Yeah, I’ll never forget

Yeah, I’ll never forget

Is this what you mean by “reminiscing”?
Cause I remember it another way
Can’t you see you and me were never meant to be
(We’re always meant to be)
(I remember it like it was just yesterday,
Everything in my mind replays)
Just like with me, but bad memories
Drown me with the sea, oh
(Everytime I try to go back,
Incase of panic attacks, I drink a six pack)
But we won’t last
It’s the end of the run
We burned in the sun
Yeah, I’ll never forget

Yeah, I’ll never forget
Yeah, I’ll never forget
(End of the run
Burn in the sun, yeah
End of the run)
Yeah, I’ll never forget

Skin like fire
Warm inside
Twist like wires
(Stay by my side, stay by my side)
Felt so high, yeah
Before goodbyes
(These moments) burn in the sun
Burn in the sun
Skin like fire
Warm inside
Twist like wires
(Stay by my side, stay by my side)
Felt so high, yeah
Before goodbyes
(These moments) burn in the sun
Yeah, I’ll never forget

Yeah, I’ll never forget

(The sun will set, it’s dark again
And oh, let’s start again slow)
(End of the run, burn in the sun, end of the run)

Yeah, I’ll never forget

(The sun will set, it’s dark again
And oh, let’s start again slow)
(End of the run, burn in the sun, end of the run)
Yeah, I’ll never forget
I’m melting into ashes
Heat got into my own head
Yeah, I’m burning, I’m burning"
"
And it begins
The sudden urge to fly
I’m checking my list
Oh heavens, come help me
I can’t help it, I savor it
I’m addicted to the taste of blood, yeah

Lock up the doors right
There’s no escape tonight
Cover their eyes
Set them in fire
Nothing can stop us now, yeah
Dead or alive, we’re loud, yeah
Let it all out
(Let it all out in sight)

Yeah we dance around the moon
Under raining blood
Let the velvet clothe the ground
Under broken hearts
Break the seams off like the yellow split navy skies
Shining through, shining through
Past the wailing cries
Yeah we swerve on through the night
Over Half Moon Bay
Falling to the sand over where our bodies will lay
As we float on gently down with the raining glass
Smiling through, smiling through our eyes

Stop, can you hear me crying out loud?
Yeah, I’m crawling out now yeah 
Oh bury me six feet deep
So you can fall asleep
But that doesn’t work on me, no

Open your eyes, open your eyes
Know that I’m back, yeah
You can’t escape this room
You can’t escape this room

This is the end, this is the end for you
Down with the system, drown with your mister

Yeah we dance around the moon
Under raining blood
Let the velvet clothe the ground
Under broken hearts
Break the seams off like the yellow split navy skies
Shining through, shining through
Past the wailing cries
Yeah we swerve on through the night
Over Half Moon Bay
Falling to the sand over where our bodies will lay
As we float on gently down with the raining glass
Smiling through, smiling through our eyes

And as we fall, pray “I’m sorry” 

Just know that you’ll never get to go home to your mother and your father
But it’s better cause I’ll take you to our Father
It’s like a one way trip and it’s for a good cause
I just let a knife slip and red confetti spews off
Sympathy is what I lack
Just like to attack from the back
I’m like a heart attack, that's a fact yeah 
I’m the Don 
Night til dawn
Easy on
Babble on
You’ll be gone

Lock up the doors right
There’s no escape tonight
Cover their eyes
Set them in fire
Nothing can stop us now, yeah
Dead or alive, we’re loud, yeah
Let it all out
(Let it all out in sight)

Yeah we dance around the moon
Under raining blood
Let the velvet clothe the ground
Under broken hearts
Break the seams off like the yellow split navy skies
Shining through, shining through
Past the wailing cries
Yeah we swerve on through the night
Over Half Moon Bay
Falling to the sand over where our bodies will lay
As we float on gently down with the raining glass
Smiling through, smiling through our eyes"
"
Here it is again
Same routine, the same old friends
Dress like everyone, the same old things
Go to work and drive the same old lane
(Turn it up)
Swallow all happy pills just like everyone else
Follow orders on screen and take the paycheck
Leave at 5, yeah, all the time
Go to sleep around 9
And say goodnight to LIFE, yeah,
Til the sunrise
I don’t know why oh why
When I start to feel like this
I’m forced to sing this:
(And it goes like this)
All of us can’t see our future clearly
All of us live life mindlessly, yeah
Just live our life til we die
Don’t even know what we like
Go under, go under, go under
It keeps repeating, repeating
Til we lose track of the days in the calendar
I follow orders, like others, so aimlessly
But I wanna break cause I cannot take this for another night
It seems I’m going crazy, yeah
Can’t take it easy, yeah
Follow everyone’s rhythm
Stick with the same algorithm to sell ‘em, yeah
Culture full of blame for those who are not the same
(Is this what you want now?)
Longing for revolution
Don’t need a cult religion
What are we dancing for now?
Copy-paste, indulge us right now
That’s the way it goes and that’s the way it goes
(And all I gotta say is)
All of us can’t see our future clearly
All of us live life mindlessly, yeah
Just live our life til we die
Don’t even know what we like
Go under, go under, go under
They thought we wouldn’t notice this orchestrated bliss
But none of me want to be a part of this, yeah
Gotta run from it all
Lay low, gotta crawl
Forget all the words they made us call
All of us can’t see our future clearly
All of us live life mindlessly, yeah
Just living our life in fear
So we gotta go under, go under All of us can’t see our future clearly
All of us live life mindlessly, yeah
Just live our life til we die
Don’t even know what we like
Go under, go under, go underAll of us can’t see our future clearly
All of us live life mindlessly, yeah
Just live our life til we die
Don’t even know what we like
Go under, go under, go under"
I believe, I dream
I can feel the sparks beneath my feet
You’re not slowing me down
I’m making my way up
You can catch me in a melody
(Cause I)
I believe, I dream
Even at times when my heart bleeds
So, I don’t give my heart, my heart away
Yeah, I know it’s complicated
But I am suffocating head to toe
I don’t know what I’m doing, 
But “I feel fine”
I tell myself that every time
“It’s alright if I die”
Drown out the noise I hide inside with feelings of stress
I try to fight it
Ignore the pain, I
Before I lay down 
Against the pour down
I must control how
The thought of being less
The thought of being pressed down
“I’m feeling depressed now”
Sing out “I’m just another lost soul,
A black crow in the white snow”
Here I am to sing it loud again
I believe, I dream
You can feel the sparks beneath my feet
You’re not slowing me down
I’m making my way up
You can catch me in a melody
(Cause I)
I believe, I dream
Even at times when my heart bleeds
So, I don’t give my heart, my heart away
I can’t bleed anymore (anymore)
I’m losing against my own war
Inside my head, I say things I dread (I dread)
Doubts inside again
I often drown myself with medicine
A disease I need to release
I dream, I dream
I believe, I dream
You can feel the sparks beneath my feet
You’re not slowing me down
I’m making my way up
You can catch me in a melody
(Cause I)
I believe, I dream
Even at times when my heart bleeds
So, I don’t give my heart, my heart away
(my heart away)
You’re not slowing me down
I’m making my way up
You can catch me in a melody
I believe, I dream
Even at times when my heart bleeds
So, I don’t give my heart, my heart
My heart"
"

I wake up alone in bed
A message from you, instead
I’m tired of this distance
When we’re sharing the same rent
I stay up in thought of you
Tired of being see-through
Don’t throw me aside
Inside I lie to myself “we’re fine”

Can you give me a reason
Why I shouldn’t just leave on the weekend?
Iris set to home
But I gotta get back on my own
Make me cry

Don’t leave me all alone
You said, “I never meant to hurt you” once more
But I heard that before
I’m leaving it all alone
Just say “I never loved you”
I’m on my own

I open my mouth and I breathe
But words just won’t come and I freeze
And I’m down on my knees
I’m counting to three, yeah
I’m feeling my pride leave, yeah
And as I kept my eyes low
My blood started to sizzle
My inner me got out to see
This act thrown out the window
“Feel sorry for me” is out the door
I can finally be

“Now you do what I say”
Now this is my stage
And watch me dance across the floor
Swinging a steel blade (telling me lies)
Guess this is how it ends
This is how life bends

Don’t leave me all alone
You said, “I never meant to hurt you” once more
But I heard that before
I’m leaving it all alone
Just say “I never loved you”
I’m on my own

My arms can’t hold
(watching you, watching you)
I just can’t watch you right now
(Watch you go, watch you go)

Before you say goodbye
Look me in my eyes
And watch me burn

(Don’t leave me all alone)
Why don’t take my heart and just break
Take it all away
Yet I find myself say

Don’t leave me all alone
You said, “I never meant to hurt you” once more
But I heard that before
I’m leaving it all alone
Just say “I never loved you”
I’m on my own

Don’t leave me all alone
Can you hear me?
(But I heard that before)
I’m leaving it all alone
Just say “I never loved you”
I’m on my own"
"
I’m melting into ashes
(Stay by my side, stay by my side)
Heat got into my own head
(Stay by my side)
Yeah, I’m burning, I’m burning

Skin like fire
Warm inside
Twist like wires
(Stay by my side, stay by my side)
Felt so high, yeah
Before goodbyes
(These moments) burn in the sun
Yeah, I’ll never forget

Yeah, I’ll never forget

Is this what you mean by “reminiscing”?
Cause I remember it another way
Can’t you see you and me were never meant to be
(We’re always meant to be)
(I remember it like it was just yesterday,
Everything in my mind replays)
Just like with me, but bad memories
Drown me with the sea, oh
(Everytime I try to go back,
Incase of panic attacks, I drink a six pack)
But we won’t last
It’s the end of the run
We burned in the sun
Yeah, I’ll never forget

Yeah, I’ll never forget
Yeah, I’ll never forget
(End of the run
Burn in the sun, yeah
End of the run)
Yeah, I’ll never forget

Skin like fire
Warm inside
Twist like wires
(Stay by my side, stay by my side)
Felt so high, yeah
Before goodbyes
(These moments) burn in the sun
Burn in the sun
Skin like fire
Warm inside
Twist like wires
(Stay by my side, stay by my side)
Felt so high, yeah
Before goodbyes
(These moments) burn in the sun
Yeah, I’ll never forget

Yeah, I’ll never forget

(The sun will set, it’s dark again
And oh, let’s start again slow)
(End of the run, burn in the sun, end of the run)

Yeah, I’ll never forget

(The sun will set, it’s dark again
And oh, let’s start again slow)
(End of the run, burn in the sun, end of the run)
Yeah, I’ll never forget
I’m melting into ashes
Heat got into my own head
Yeah, I’m burning, I’m burning"
"
And it begins
The sudden urge to fly
I’m checking my list
Oh heavens, come help me
I can’t help it, I savor it
I’m addicted to the taste of blood, yeah

Lock up the doors right
There’s no escape tonight
Cover their eyes
Set them in fire
Nothing can stop us now, yeah
Dead or alive, we’re loud, yeah
Let it all out
(Let it all out in sight)

Yeah we dance around the moon
Under raining blood
Let the velvet clothe the ground
Under broken hearts
Break the seams off like the yellow split navy skies
Shining through, shining through
Past the wailing cries
Yeah we swerve on through the night
Over Half Moon Bay
Falling to the sand over where our bodies will lay
As we float on gently down with the raining glass
Smiling through, smiling through our eyes

Stop, can you hear me crying out loud?
Yeah, I’m crawling out now yeah 
Oh bury me six feet deep
So you can fall asleep
But that doesn’t work on me, no

Open your eyes, open your eyes
Know that I’m back, yeah
You can’t escape this room
You can’t escape this room

This is the end, this is the end for you
Down with the system, drown with your mister

Yeah we dance around the moon
Under raining blood
Let the velvet clothe the ground
Under broken hearts
Break the seams off like the yellow split navy skies
Shining through, shining through
Past the wailing cries
Yeah we swerve on through the night
Over Half Moon Bay
Falling to the sand over where our bodies will lay
As we float on gently down with the raining glass
Smiling through, smiling through our eyes

And as we fall, pray “I’m sorry” 

Just know that you’ll never get to go home to your mother and your father
But it’s better cause I’ll take you to our Father
It’s like a one way trip and it’s for a good cause
I just let a knife slip and red confetti spews off
Sympathy is what I lack
Just like to attack from the back
I’m like a heart attack, that's a fact yeah 
I’m the Don 
Night til dawn
Easy on
Babble on
You’ll be gone

Lock up the doors right
There’s no escape tonight
Cover their eyes
Set them in fire
Nothing can stop us now, yeah
Dead or alive, we’re loud, yeah
Let it all out
(Let it all out in sight)

Yeah we dance around the moon
Under raining blood
Let the velvet clothe the ground
Under broken hearts
Break the seams off like the yellow split navy skies
Shining through, shining through
Past the wailing cries
Yeah we swerve on through the night
Over Half Moon Bay
Falling to the sand over where our bodies will lay
As we float on gently down with the raining glass
Smiling through, smiling through our eyes"
"
Here it is again
Same routine, the same old friends
Dress like everyone, the same old things
Go to work and drive the same old lane
(Turn it up)
Swallow all happy pills just like everyone else
Follow orders on screen and take the paycheck
Leave at 5, yeah, all the time
Go to sleep around 9
And say goodnight to LIFE, yeah,
Til the sunrise
I don’t know why oh why
When I start to feel like this
I’m forced to sing this:
(And it goes like this)
All of us can’t see our future clearly
All of us live life mindlessly, yeah
Just live our life til we die
Don’t even know what we like
Go under, go under, go under
It keeps repeating, repeating
Til we lose track of the days in the calendar
I follow orders, like others, so aimlessly
But I wanna break cause I cannot take this for another night
It seems I’m going crazy, yeah
Can’t take it easy, yeah
Follow everyone’s rhythm
Stick with the same algorithm to sell ‘em, yeah
Culture full of blame for those who are not the same
(Is this what you want now?)
Longing for revolution
Don’t need a cult religion
What are we dancing for now?
Copy-paste, indulge us right now
That’s the way it goes and that’s the way it goes
(And all I gotta say is)
All of us can’t see our future clearly
All of us live life mindlessly, yeah
Just live our life til we die
Don’t even know what we like
Go under, go under, go under
They thought we wouldn’t notice this orchestrated bliss
But none of me want to be a part of this, yeah
Gotta run from it all
Lay low, gotta crawl
Forget all the words they made us call
All of us can’t see our future clearly
All of us live life mindlessly, yeah
Just living our life in fear
So we gotta go under, go under All of us can’t see our future clearly
All of us live life mindlessly, yeah
Just live our life til we die
Don’t even know what we like
Go under, go under, go underAll of us can’t see our future clearly
All of us live life mindlessly, yeah
Just live our life til we die
Don’t even know what we like
Go under, go under, go under"